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Hello, my name is Brenda. I'm 49 years old, I'm a wife, and a mother of an 18-year-old son, and a 15-year-old daughter. I was going to list first that I weigh 360 pounds, but some things are more important than weight. I was thinking to myself that my weight doesn't define me, so why should I list it before my fantastic husband and amazing kids?
But I just realized as I was typing this my weight does define me, it limits what I can and can't do. When we enter a restaurant, we have to sit at a table because I can't fit in a booth. At church we can't sit in the balcony anymore because I can't walk up and down the stairs at a normal pace. When we went to Cedar Point several years ago, I know I would never fit on a roller coaster, I thought the old fashion cars were safe, I was absolutely horrified when the attendant said "ma'am I'm sorry but you will have to get off because the seat belt doesn't fit." It broke my heart to leave my 7 year old daughter on the car by herself. I have to assess every chair before I sit in it because I'm afraid I will break it, and if I do sit down I try not to put all my weight on it. We never go to the Whitecap games or Griffin Hockey games because I don't want to crowd the people sitting next to me. I walk like an old lady due to knee and feet pain when I initially get up, its extremely embarrassing, especially at work. I've stopped going to my in-laws home because I don't want to break their furniture, or struggle to get up. I can't/won't go to my sister-in-laws to get my hair cut anymore because I'm too embarrassed to be seen struggling with her stairs. I want to walk around Artprize daily with my amazing friends. My daughter's Venturing group is going to Maine for 10 days in August and I hope to go. I should list my weight before my name. I'm a number, every action I do in life now, is defined by #360. NO MORE.
I've made numerous mistakes in my life, would have, could have, should have. But today is a new day. The mistakes are in the past, I can't change them, but I can refuse to repeat them.
So buckle up Brenda, remember God is in charge, life is like a roller coaster, with ups and downs, peaks and valleys. God please give me strength, courage and peace as I begin this new chapter in my life. The Journey starts now.
