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Well today as I sit here trying very hard to keep my anxiety levels down I am thinking about how so many times we profess our faith and how we believe in the word of God but how so many times we expect it to just fall into our laps. This came about with as you all know last time I wrote I was not really happy with the way things were going, being told after I had completely everything else that "Oh you need to see the Pulmo dr too" but I took that as a good thing as a healthcare professional I know how important it is that our lung capacity is known and any issues made clear. So I did as I was told and after 2 hrs searching found a Dr that would see me the saame week instead of in June or July...Faith +Action = Good Results. Then it was taking the pulmo office what seemed like forever to get my results out but I kept calling everyday finally to get them faxed over... Faith + Action= Good Results. Then once that was done I get the news that "Oh we need you labs, EKG and stress test results", hmmm am I being tested, is my patience being tested. Everytime they tell my this is the last thing they hit me with something else. So I call all the necessary folks and asked that the info be faxed over...Faith + Action --> Be Patient. For days I called to make sure it got there and everyday it was a negative. So today I prayed Lord tell me what to do now,  the Lord said "what do you think...call them back!!" So I called and the young lady said well maybe you can go and get them and bring them here... I'm thinking to myself "Man..its raining cats, dogs, birds, and butterflies out there, not today". And clear as day the Lord said to me Faith - Action = What? He said if you are hungry and I provide you with some raw meat, do you just eat the raw meat or do you take the ACTION of preparing it fr consumption. I thought hmmm well your more than right, I called my PCP and the Cardio office and asked if they would prepare the items for me to pick up. I braved this bad rainy weather and in less than an hour I went to my PCP on Piedmont, Crawford Long on Peachtree and Atlanta Medical on Blvd and made sure they received all needed info. My Faith + My Action yielded My info where it needed to be. Now the true waiting game starts but I have FAITH that as He has seen me through all of these frustration He will see me all the way through. Hell I know He aint bring me this far to just drop me off... so I will take everything in stride and know it will work out fine.

This is what was laid on my heart to share... I hope its a LESSON or a BLESSING for someone... Til next time OH Fam

Easy

So I turned I everything I was supposed to turn in and TODAY when I called to make sure they got the NUT eval., which they did, the same chick who told me I didn't need the Pulmonary Clearance is now telling me I do. And then when my frustration begins to show she wants to sale me that bull about 'Ma'am I am only here to help you' and then when confronted with the information that she gave me she wants to back peddle saying well the letter I sent you said you needed a pulmonary clearance, then I like but YOU emailed me saying if I had no pulmonary issues that I wouldn't need it. Now is it me or is she starting to give me the run around. I hate when people do this, I am so very punctual about everything and to try and make it look like I'm not doing what I supposed to, that just burns me up. Not to mention I have spoke with this office on several occasions in the last two weeks and this is the FIRST time anyone has mention this. As I digress, now I have to wait for my doctor to send me a referral then make the appointment then go to the appointment then wait for the results then fax it to this backwards ass office, IE another 2-3 weeks of BS. Then I have to wait for the surgeon to look over the file then they submit it to the insurance company. So really another probably 2 months of this mess.I'm so frustrated.

Frustrated Bee

So I have finished everything required of me and turned everything in. I'm hoping that everything goes smooth and swift. I will update as soon as I get some kind of word.

Bee

 Well on November 25, 2008 I decided to change my life and realized that I needed help doing so. It was on a flight to FL when I could barely buckle up my seat belt and I was too embarrassed to ask for an extensions. I sat on that plane for 1 hour and 50 mins there and back completely uncomfortable with that belt almost cutting my skin. That was it for me. I began to reach out for help and my PCP grabbed my hand. On December 20Th I went to the Bariatric surgery seminar for Peachtree bariatrics and even though I had been to these seminars before this time seemed different. Once I left there I had a feeling of resilience and I knew my life wouldn't be the same. Simultaneously, I decided that I needed to face the demons that got me here in the first place. I have been battling with my weight since I was about 16 yrs old, going from an 8 to 16, then between the ages of 19 and 25 I went from 16 to 24. I don't have any co-morbidities but I know if I don't do something now I am on the way. With my weight now at 300lbs and my BMI at 45.6, my quality of life is slowly but surely decreasing. I can't do the things I want to do like zip lining, para-sailing, look cute in a wet suit and go scuba diving. I haven't traveled like I want or seen things I wanna see because of this weight. I have gone far too long, holding myself hostage inside myself. I have not been in a relationship for 4 yrs because I know I have to deal with my issues before I can be good to someone else. I gotta love me, then I can give the same wholeheartedly. And part of loving me is getting me healthy and happy and living my life as I really desire to. So here I am stripped down and naked(spiritually) and ready to move forward and heal all parts of my life, emotionally and physically. At 28 yrs old, I have decided to take control of my life, work through the obstacles, and come out on the other in a better person, starting with .....WLS.

Thanks for taking the time to understand where I'm coming from...if you are here you probably understand all too well any. So good luck on your journey...stay focused.

"Betrayal of the Self in order not be betray another is betrayal nonetheless. It is the Highest Betrayal." -Neale Donald Walsh, CWG