Nearly 8 Months Post Op

Dec 21, 2008

Well, I've been going to a therapist sinc March...I broke up with my BF of 4 years just weeks b/4 the surgery.  I'm having body image problems.  I still see the phat girl, but my therapist thinks i'm normal sized.  I wear a size 12 and am just about 200lbs. I"ve always hid 20-40lbs well.  I'm not sure 12 is a normal size.

I see my image in the mirror and it seems normal, but when photographed i'm like OMFG...that is awful, you look like a fat pig, STILL.

The Therapist thinks its body dismorphism?  (not sure I spelled that correctly).  The Therapist is like 5'8" and looks to be about 100lbs soaking wet, but she told me she weighed like 150...I said NO WAY........Like I'm only 50;lbs more than that and I look like a mac truck and she looks like Twiggy.

Anyway, I'm working on the body image and still pining away after the old BF...maybe 2009 will be a better year.

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