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Things are moving so fast...
Mar 07, 2012
I had a little panic attack last night, but finally with prayer was able to calm myself down. Reason? Well, first of all for the last 5 weeks I've been dealing with either hemorrhoids or an anal fissure. I know, gross. I went to a gastroentologist this past Monday and he thinks it's the latter. Anyway, he kindly got me in next Monday for a colonoscopy so that I can make sure everything is OK before my VSG surgery on March 23rd. At least I haven't had any bleeding for over a week and feel like maybe it's getting better. Then last night I tried another fiber additive and it did
NOT agree with me. I was up from about 9 pm to 1 am with the runs and each time it seemed as though I would hurt worse! I just want to feel normal again and am so tired of being afraid to poop! On this coming Sunday I have to do the required tons of fluid and meds to clean me out before the procedure on Monday. First of all it's in 2 parts and to do the second part I have to be up at 1 am, so I'll get no sleep
at all. I'm also scared of how much my poor butt will be hurting with all of the bathroom visits. Argh!! I'm just praying that I can endure the pain.
Now for things moving so fast... Colonoscopy on this coming Monday, sign final paperwork for surgery this Thursday, on Friday visit the hospital to get instructions for surgery and meet the anesthesiologist, then surgery the following Friday! I just feel like I have so much to think about and can work myself into an overwhelmed frenzy. However, I keep telling myself to stay calm and take it one day at a time. I am so happy that it is finally surgery time and I am excited...I just have to keep telling myself that. My first meeting with Dr. Pirrello was back on Oct. 17, 2011 and now over 5 months later it's finally surgery time!
