Debbie B.

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So today was a much better day.  I woke up and went to get my cottage cheese and yogurt, but the cottage cheese was GROSS.  So I had my yogurt and a protein slam.  Of course I totally forgot that I was suppose to be fasting so that I could get blood drawn today, but I will do it tomorrow.  A much better day today.   I have also lost 5 pounds in two weeks and that is GRRRREAT!

Not a good day.  I pretty much wasn't hungry all day.  I know you have to eat to lose weight, but today I just couldn't.  I ate dinner and that is about it.  I did have a protein drink earlier.  I spent most of the day researching Lean Cuisine meals, because they are small, but alot of them have a lot of carbs in them and little protein.  It may say protein 22 grams, but it could actually be only 20% protein.  Not Good.  So I calculated every single meal from their web site and if it had 30 or above percent of protein I wrote it down.  It is a good/fast option for during lunch because I have three babies and getting them lunch, cleaned up, changed and put down for their nap I am worn out to make me lunch.  So it is convenient.  Man am I low on motivation today.

So I am doing better.  I am definately getting my water in.  I am still short of my 108 grams of protein by food only, so I am supplementing with ProteinSlam 27.  I really hate the tingle feeling I have with it, but it is the only protein I have found that I can actually keep down.  I am going to try ProSlam 45 when I am out of the 27.  I heard it taste the same, but lot more protein.  I haven't weighed myself, because the scale is not going to rule my life.  As long as my size 16's fit I am happy.

Now for the most important that I have negelected since having the twins.  I have not been to a doctor to get my blood work done.  I have to say that I am so happy that before I left New Mexico that I went to my Doc and asked for my WLS records.  My Doc here has no clue what blood work I need done.  I did fine a lab work request and it has the following tests that my GP Doc always asked for:
    - CMP (Comprehensive Metabolic Panel) - this consists of 14 different tests.  Two for sugars, two for proteins, four for electrolytes, two for kidneys and four for the liver.
    - Ferritin - looks at Iron levels and proteins
    - Serum Iron - Iron
    - TIBC (Total Iron Blood Count) - Iron
    - Vitamin B-12 - B-12 helps with DNA synthesis, repairs the brain and nervous systems.  Deficiency can cause ftique, depression, and poor memory.
    - Serum Folate - This is a B-9/Folic Acid.  It helps produce healthy red blood cells and helps prevent anemia.
    - CBC w/Diff (Complete Blood Count) - This is a complete blood count of red and white blood cells and platelets.  A good count help prevent infections and diseases.
    - Albumin - I am not really sure.  All I do know is that if your to high it is usually caused by dehydration.  If you are too low then it can cause liver disease.
Now these next two test I have to get done because I have had pancreatitist.
    - Amylase - Is an enzyme that breaks down starch to sugar.  Pancreas makes Amylase.  It helps make and break down complex sugars.  To much could cause acute inflammation of the pancreas.
    - Lipase - Performs essential roles in the digestion, transport and processing of dietary lipids such as triglycerides, fats and oils that the pancreas has to process.

Ok so I have a call into my doc to get the blood work done and to get a referral to be seen a GP Doc since it is time.

So Yesterday was a really good day.  I filled up on my protein and watched my carbs and made sure I ate the good ones.  Today however was a really bad day.  I was having an emotional breakdown.  I have lost 2 lbs though which is good.

I have come to realize something today.  It is kind of like a breakthrough for me.  Right now I live on base in base housing and I don't have any true friends, just people I see once in a while.  This is the first time that I dont have friends.  It really has been hard on me.  If I have one great friend that is all I need and I am happy.  Well, I haven't really made any.  Today I figured out why.  I don't make friends with military people because I dont want them to leave me.  I have been left behind too many times and so I don't put myself in that position anymore.  I will make friends with non-military people because they are more likely to be rooted and if I leave than that is ok, but if they leave me it isn't.  So I guess I will be going to my therapist sometime this week and tell her what I figured out and try and figure how to get over it.

I REALLY want a mountain dew right now.

Today did not start out good.  Eat a pop tart and drank a Mountain Dew.  Lunch had a Lean Cuisine.  Dinner I have no clue yet.  I have not sat down to plan anything.  I all ready feel defeated today.  Tomorrow will be another day.  Going to go have a Protein Slam and get that tinglely feeling...lol

So it is now 2009.  I am almost five years out.  I had lost 125 lbs, but between surgery and today I have had three more children and have gained 50 lbs back from last pregnancy.  They are now 18 months and I am ready to get back on track.  I don't know where to begin, but I will pray about it and figure out what to do.  I have started back to a support group, hoping for the best.  No one seems to be as far out as I am, but with their encouragement and strong shoulders I am sure I will find my way back to a healthy me.