Day 3

May 08, 2009

So Yesterday was a really good day.  I filled up on my protein and watched my carbs and made sure I ate the good ones.  Today however was a really bad day.  I was having an emotional breakdown.  I have lost 2 lbs though which is good.

I have come to realize something today.  It is kind of like a breakthrough for me.  Right now I live on base in base housing and I don't have any true friends, just people I see once in a while.  This is the first time that I dont have friends.  It really has been hard on me.  If I have one great friend that is all I need and I am happy.  Well, I haven't really made any.  Today I figured out why.  I don't make friends with military people because I dont want them to leave me.  I have been left behind too many times and so I don't put myself in that position anymore.  I will make friends with non-military people because they are more likely to be rooted and if I leave than that is ok, but if they leave me it isn't.  So I guess I will be going to my therapist sometime this week and tell her what I figured out and try and figure how to get over it.

I REALLY want a mountain dew right now.

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