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I am sick of jello, and protien shakes.  Todays adventure will be egg beaters.  I am actually a bit frustrated, but an attitude adjustment cant be far off.

fay

as in blended.  You know for a fat person I don't know my way around the kitchen.  I have a blender.  Its a designated blender.  Used solely for mixing alcoholic beverages (don't judge me).

Since my blender has a PUREE button (right next to CRUSH for ice), is that how you make pureed food?  Its a real question.  I dont remember how baby food taste, but something tells me it wont taste like chicken.

Well thank God I like Unjury shakes!

Fay

Ok so going back to work was not as easy as i thought, but I survived.  First office chairs do not recline. So i am sitting up right 4 hours. My stomach and my stitches had a fight and the stitches won.  Kinda felt like I was being sucker punched on the inside. I call it Fat's Revenge, The Final Punch


Today feels much better.  It gets better EVERYDAY.  By monday I will be back full time.

Fay

No I am not crazy, well it has not been validated by a licensed professional.  I am returning tomorrow 10days post op. I am excited by the idea of it and I realize it may be more than my body can handle.

Fear not I have an exit strategy...Stage Exit Left!!!

I will let you all know how it goes.


Cautiously Optimistic!!
Fay

Whew!! That was easy..ah, painful. Well only when I laugh, or cough or sneeze. 

I stayed in a real swanky hospital, a hospitel.  I did not know hospitals had that kind of ammenities.sofas recliners closets, cable tv. Even the paper gowns were upscale.  Yeah Virginia Hospital Center!!!

Much love to Dr Salameh ... I call him Dr Salami.  The chief resident was impressed that I got away with it.  Told the anesthesiologist to not bruise my throat or it wold ruin my experience.  His resident took excellent care of my throat.

The admitting nurse who placed my IV, was a hoot.  She believes in aliens and "channeling".  Crazy entertainment value. I kept her talking.
My procedure lasted about 1 hour.  5 slits later, excess stomach gone. The leak test left alot to be desired. All that was left lbetween me and home was eating dinner.  At this point I had gone 2 days without food or drink. The worst part of the experience. People JELLO is NOT dinner!!!

I would do it again it a heart beat. I would fill my pain meds ahead of time though. I am feeling alot better. It takes longer than I would like to get through a shake.  BTW Premier Protein from Costco is the bomb for real.  They are not thick like slimfast and they have NO after taste

I have not weighed myself yet, but I can see a difference in the mirror...either that or I am light headed and my view is distorted.  Seriously I am melting*Wizard of OZ*

Fay

Whew.  My surgery is scheduled for next Thursday the 17th.  Saying that I am excited is an understatement.  I am in better control of my thoughts now.  Last week I was hungry all the time and fearful that I would not be successful even with surgery.  Okay I had a nightmare that started that thought.  I woke up sweating and anxious.  Right now every thing curry...like we say in the islands.  It means things are good.

I am focused on weight loss.  Thank God for his help.  I did a lot of praying over the weekend trying to wrap my mind around my current situation. It helped tremendously and I am grateful.

I was watching Heavy on A&E on Monday and I realized that I need to acknowledge what contributed to me getting to this point.  Weighing 288 pounds when you are only 5'4'' is a lot.  I crossed the 200 pound mark in 2003 and have been headed upward since then.
 Contributing factors:
 - Divorce/bankruptcy in 2000
 - 3 knee surgeries in 2 yrs (2002-2004)
 - Depression
 - Chronic joint pain since 2002
 - I love food (sweets and baked goods)

The results are obvious. At my worst I was 306 pounds. Ten of those pounds were added from steroid use.  My blood pressure is starting to fluctuate and my knees can barely support me. I was referred to Bariatrics by my orthopedic surgeon.  No knee replacement with me being over 200 pounds

I have tried every diet except for Jenny Craig and nutrasystem

I want/need to have a VSG for my general well being.  One day I woke up and did not recognize the person I have become.  I am lethargic.  I no long enjoy socializing. Given a choice I would stay on the couch with Cheetos and coffee (dont judge me LOL).  Well the springs in my couch are broken. Thanks to my rump...God rest its sole. 


Why am I having Surgery:
 -  My knees are in need of repair
 - I need to stop having back spasms
 - my badly sprained ankle, is taking forever to heal
 - Ok lets just say ALL the joints in my lower extremities HURT daily
 - I miss my mobility
 - My weight related depression is a burden
 - Sex is good, it used to be GREAT
 - avoid type 2 diabetes
 - lower my blood pressure
- I want to live a long, healthy, mobile life

I am ready for a do-over.  Having this surgery will give me a HUGE assist.  I have tried several times in the last 5 years to visualize losing 100+ pounds.  The though overwhelms me, which depresses mewhich makes me eat....

No More!!!

Fay

I have been anxious all week.  I ordered some shakes(using  the word loosly) from Unjury.  They taste good. I with they were thicker.  I am skeptical that those shakes will sustaine me.

I meet with Dr Salameh on Tuesday and I start lowuids on Thursday.

Fay

The title says it all.  I was snowed in and it did not slow my eating.  I am so looking forward to a smaller stomach.  Well I know its a new week, so I will do my best to shake it off.

I had a terrible dream/nightmare that even after surgery, I could not lose weight.  I woke up sweating.

Fay