Frankie Soto
I have been gaining weight since I was a sophmore in high school. In the last 4 years, after having two kids, I have gained over 100 pounds. I have had gestational diabetes and preeclampsia. I was told by one of my gynecologist that if I did not loose weight I would have diabetes and high blood pressure when I got older. Being overweight and these along with other medical problems have a history in my family. My mother is the closest to me that is overweight.
I have had a depression problem since middle school. I have extremely low self esteem. I don't like to be in crowds or meet new people. I have tried dieting but can't seem to stick to them because it seems that they are useless and I feel as if I am starving myself because I am so used to eating so much. It not that I eat all the time. I mostly eat two times a day and usually without snacks. When I cook though I eat enough for 3 people. When I feel full I keep going. I love all the wrong foods. Mashed Potatoes and Rice are my favorite foods. My comfort foods are chocolate cake w/ chocolate icing and peanut butter m&m's.
I am in the process of going to a doctor for 6 months to be weighed and for regular checkups while dieting. Hopefully when the 6 months is up I can have the surgery but I am trying not to get my hopes up because as of right now I have no medical problems and it seems as if it is too good to be true.
My two boys are 8 months and 3 years. They are my life. I want to be able to play with them and run after them. I want them to be proud of me and not be embarassed of me when they get older.
I feel like crap all the time and I hate to clean because every time I'm on my feet for too long they burn and hurt around my ankles and sometimes even swell. I can't shop for long like I used to do and thats my favorite thing to do! I have to do most of my shopping online because I am too big to buy clothes out of a normal store. I can no longer wear my favorite brands that I loved when I was younger.
I am a very short person at 5`0. My best friend is the same height as me and she is 118 lbs. as to my 244 lbs. She is also my soon to be sister in law and my husband's twin brother's girlfriend. We are like opposites to be dating two that are so much the same. When we go out I feel so uncomfortable.
I don't want to be skinny or what you call boney. I just want to be healthy and at my right size for my height. I would like to be around 130-135. I am not sure what my body type is as far as my frame size.
So anyways, in general... I love to listen to music no matter what mood I am in. I like to watch movies or tv all the time and chat on this damn internet! LOL.. I love to shop as I already said. I used to love to dance but I know no one wants to see all that fat jiggling around now. I used to like playing volleyball too but ain't that active anymore. Swimming used to be my favorite activity. I actually worked one summer at the pool where I lived when I was about 15. Can you actually imagine being so confident in yourself that you would work at a pool? I can't even imagine that anymore. I used to be a big clown and very talkative but seems that getting overweight makes you shy I guess.
I just realized that I am now one of those people who hasn't done something fun in so long that I can't remember all the things there are out there to do that I actually like doing. Oh well.... I guess that's enough about my story anyways.
I want to wish every one luck in loosing weight and hope that everyone gets and stays healthy out there. I have been adding people and reading on this site for about a week now and I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT!
Oh and I am hoping to have the Lap Band surgery but have just started my 6 month supervised diet. We'll see how everything goes. I am going to be doing all my other Medicaid required stuff in the meantime. I will let you all know if I get approved or not in 6 months I guess.
All my love to you all!
Frankie Lee
