ivydale
10/18/06 - 233.6, BMI 40.1
Well today is the day that I start my 2 week pre-op diet. Hard to believe that this is this 1st day of some huge changes in my life. It is really an insignificant day, sort of drizzly & overcast. I know that the rest of the world goes on, but part of me expects a little fanfare here. I keep thinking of how this is going to be in terms of pound & dates, for instance, by Christmas I should be here & by the national sales meeting I should be at this weight. I have mixed feelings about doing that, one is that if I am not where I expect to be then I will be all disappointed, however if I have certain expectations they should keep me on plan. I think that this is pretty typical of everyone, but because it is me it just seems that much more profound. How egomaniacal can I get? Everyone on my OH forum has been so amazing, It is wonderful to realize that I am not the only one that has these back & forth emotions, & It is great to be able to go back read about someone going through the same thing that I am no then, fast forward to 2 or 4 or 6 months later, none of them have regretted it. What an inspiration.
