12/13/2009

Dec 13, 2009

5 years post-op
weight 130

Wow!  I haven't been here in soo long.  I guess we get caught up in life.  I have gone through so much that I couldn't even begin to post it all.  I hope to capture some of the key things I have learned and yet to learn ;).

I had my tummy tuck and breast augmentation/mastopexy done in February.  I don 't think it was nearly as bad as what I thought it would be.  I am very happy I was finally able to do it!  I still struggle with body image quite a bit.  I had gained weight (was up to about 163) and lost it again.  I was steady at about 140 - 145 through 2008, but recently began losing again.  I had to go buy new jeans and realized I needed a size 3.  I got a little upset with myself because I still see myself as a "thick" girl and yet in my mind I know I shouldn't.  I don't want to lose more weight. My BMI is still in the normal range so I am confident I am still OK, yet I battle with the mental image I have of myself.  I suppose some things never change...sigh!  I have made a new goal for 2010 to hold my weight steady at 130, but improve my diet and increase my exercise. So here's to a healthier 2010 for us all!

On a personal note, well lets see...  Train wreck comes to mind when describing the last few years of my life.  lol.  Perhaps I had found a "me" a long the way I really did not like.  Once again (in my life) I had looked in the mirror and found I did not like what I saw.  I have seen the dark side but I have made it back!  Trust me..the cookies are way better over here!!!   I am truly happier than I have been in many years.  I have someone wonderful in my life now who shows me the kind of person that I want to be and the kind of life I want to lead.  He does this simply by loving me for who I am. 

To everyone on their journey....  best of health and happiness!!
Jo

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