lovejoye
I have always been overweight and struggled with it as a child as well. I remember going to my first weight watchers meeting with my mom when I was 10 years old. And the only thing I remember about all the meetings we went to was of this one lady who was maybe 80 years old, I just remember she was really old to me and she had finally reached her goal weight. It had taken her a few years but she had done it and all I remember thinking at that age was I do not want to be 80 and barely reaching my goal weight because there is no point, you don't look good old. It is funny for me to think back on that because now looking back on it she was probably doing it for her health which is the point I'm at.
I have to admit yes, I would be nice to look nice and be more "attractive" even though all my friends say I look fine, I don't feel fine. I'm very uncomfortable in my own skin and struggle with my image daily. I haven't had any health problems until recently and that is my blood pressure which seems to be a little higher than before. I've never had any problems before but now I do. I don't want to be a victoria secret model but I do want to feel healthy and I'd like to shop other places than the "plus size" section.
I do qualify for surgery and I even met my surgeon last week on 4/28/11 but he wants me to have Gastric Bypass and I have nothing against that surgery but I am really scared to have that and would rather have the lap band. I realize that my weight is higher and he would like me to have gastric because it will be more effective but I don't feel it is safe and I'd rather change my habits slowly over time. Also, he said that with lap band I would only lose 60 lbs tops and I need to lose about 120 lbs so that would put me at 160 lbs. so that is why he is suggesting the more drastic surgery. Everyone is different but I'd like lap band personally.
So, the goal is this...the doctor had noticed that I had lost over 60 lbs. before and asked me why I had gained it back and I told him simply that I got stuck and stopped losing and then I got frustrated and fell back into my old habits. So, I suggested that in the past it took me 8-9 months to lose 60 lbs. and if I lost those 60 lbs between now, May 2011 and December 2011 then would I be able to have lap band with more success. He said yes, he highly recommends I do that because then I would get all my weight off for sure and lap band would help me get over that plateau and I would reach my goal of 160, not the recommended goal of 135. Also, my liver would be smaller and all my organs would be healthier which would make for an easier and safer surgery!!
Thanks for all your support and following me on my journey for the next 9 months and I'm hoping and praying that in December of 2011 I'll be banded babe!!
