martinkross

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Over the past couple of days I have realized how lucky I am.  I have been feeling grateful about how much I have.  I am happy.   I have a wonderful partner.  I have a great job. This change of attitude has me looking closer at what I am eating and caring about my health and longevity.  I have not done an about face and began eating super healthy and excersising like  an athelete.  I have begun to care about my health however, which for me is monumental.  In addition I have begun to look at the lifestyle changes including emotional health that will be needed for me to extend my life beyond my male famiily's normal mid 50s drop dead rate.
Thanks to the men who have shared with me about some dicey issues for me.
Martin

I feel fat, out of shape, and struggle to support the love of my life who just completed her second week post op.  I dont really feel sorry for myself, just sad that I find myself about 80 pounds overweight without a burning desire to drop those pounds.  Food can be very enjoyable to me and serves to relax me and help me accept things I dont like or which are out of my control.  Not sure whre the next few weeks of=r months will take me. As it is I adore my partner and want the best for her.  I cant imagine surgery being an option for me, although I'll keep my mind open, and hopefully my dozen pills will stave off the expected heart attack, stroke or diabetic complication.  I think I want to be healthy but I also hold onto the comfort food provides me. My life is wonderful and worth enjoying, I have an incredible job and a loving partner.  My Mom is doing well for her age.  And considering my history and lifestyle I am healthy.  I am having a hard time shaking the sadness and negativity without high fat and high carb diet.