meleauxdy
Surgery Scheduled!
Oct 03, 2010
Well, I have finally scheduled my surgery for October 22nd. Making the decision to have weightloss surgery has been difficult for me, but after researching options and surgeries, I am committed that it has been the right one. One thing about me in life is that I have always been an open book - telling people my deepest secrets if prompted. I've never felt the need to hide anything about myself. However, I have chosen to tell only 4 people about my surgery. Two coworkers whom I trust, my BFF, and my husband. My family doesn't know nor do my other coworkers and boss. I feel that I need to protect myself and this journey - as though it is something sacred. I guess for years I've been judged for my weight and weight gain - I don't want to be judged for the weight loss. I don't know. Maybe it just makes me feel vulnerable - as though the choice to have WLS is not as valid as "doing it on your own". In the end, I just decided that it was no one's business but mine.I'm anxious about the surgery and lifestyle afterwards. Tomorrow, I go to have bloodwork done in order to get approval from my PCP that I am fit for surgery. In this case, my endocrinologist will be the one clearing me for surgery. I hate bloodwork.
This morning, I laid in bed thinking about how I was going to physically feel after the surgery and whether or not I would be in severe pain. I don't think I will be but I guess you never know. I touched my stomach above my belly button where I know the scar will be and wondered whether or not I would be able to get pregnant more easily after losing the weight.
My husband is being extremely supportive. I've been eating whatever I want these last few days before beginning my liquid diet (per my surgeon's instructions). Usually, I at least make some attempt to watch what I eat but lately I've just enjoyed food. I'm certain I've gained more weight.
My surgeon is quite young - so much so that I was a little surprised. He's very charismatic though and I could tell by the sparkle in his eyes that he's probably quite a comedian. He took all of my questions in stride, which I imagine would have made other surgeon's roll their eyes. I even went as far as to ask him why he decided to choose that particular field of medicine. Clearly, his answer sufficed because I am allowing him to hack me open. I can't imagine not going in with a list of questions before allowing someone to slice you open and remove your innards.
All anxiety aside, I am looking forward to this journey. Perhaps October 22, 2010 will come to be celebrated as my rebirth date.
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About Me
Fort Lauderdale, FL
Location
39.8
BMI
Surgery
10/22/2010
Surgery Date
Sep 04, 2010
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