7 Years out

Jul 06, 2015

It's been years since I have been on this site. I wish I had remained active on it all along so there was a record of my journey... But today I'm struggling. I had dropped to 111 pounds at my lowest and was in a size 1. I loved it however, the people around my hassled me non stop. "You look sick!" You look like you have an eating disorder!" "You look like a ballerina!" and so on. So I got very comfortable eating whatever I wanted and drinking a lot of beer. (my fave) My plan was to get back to 120, which was a healthy weight for me. However, 120 came and went. So did 125 and now I'm up to 130. Which I do not like. I'm panicking bc I want to loose weight now. I'm not happy here at 130 and cant fit into my clothes. I feel fat, unattractive, and like I'm loosing control. Please understand that I know I am BLESSED beyond words to be 130 instead of 230! It's just that I no longer like myself here at 130. Much like I didn't like myself at 230... I hope that makes sense. I'm going to seek out some help on losing the extra 10 pounds. If anyone has any suggestions, PLEASE contact me!!!  Love and encouragement to you all!!!!   PS If I knew how to work this darn site I would post pics of my journey but I can't figure it out! :(

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