8 Days and counting!!!!

Jun 03, 2012

OMG, I am freaking out!!!!! 8 Days until surgery!!! I am terriffied!!!!  I know I want and need this, but I am so sacred of complications.  It seams that the boards are more negative lately.  Or maybe I am just noticing the negativity more, I don't know.  The anesthesiologist from the hospital called on Friday and I missed it.  Listened to the message and got a sinking feeling in my stomach with butterflies @ the same time.  UGH!!!  It really made me realize how real this is.  
     I had another conversation with my hubby and he is so supportive. I have been acting a little (ok ALOT) more secluded/introverted than usual this week and he just let me know he supports me and will help me in anyway.  I hope he still feels that way afterwards, lol. When I am grumpy and more hormonal than I am now.  I found out that my mom has taken off work and will be there at the hospital with me too. I was kinda suprised but very happy.  She didn't come when I had my lap band placed. Maybe she just thought it was a less risky surgery. I don't know.  
     I have a feeling this week is going to fly by, both because I am nervous and because my schedule is VERY busy.  Work Monday, Jury Duty on Tuesday, Pre-Op and work on Wednesday, Work on Thursday, Friday and Saturday. Sunday Pack and prepare and then BAM! The day I change my life!!!!! WOW!!! My stomach just did another flip. 

I just have to keep talling myself, I CAN DO THIS!!!!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!! I CAN DO THIS!!!!!

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