Nancy C.
I have been over weight all my life, at 17 years old I lost 35 Lbs and got down to a fine 123. After 3 children and many many years and added complancy Here I am I have just found out last Feb. that I have Diabetes, high blood pressure and high cholostorel, and have gone on meds, I been yoyoing on my dieting for the last 37 years. Up and down but my head feels like its spinning round and round. (You know when that water gain makes my face look like a balloon .) I hate trying on clothes. Hate looking in the mirror and am tired of crying my self to sleep. My husband says I love you just the way you are. And he means it I love him for who he is too but I want to be a better person not only for him and myself but for my grandchildren and my future greatgandchildren I want to be around for a long time. My mom is 85 years old and has been over weight all her life and now is almost completely blind due to complications of diabetes. I don't want to end up like that I want to live my life to it's fullest. I feel as though I do not go places, at times and am always self concious of what others think of me because of my obesity. Once I went to college and the teacher at the time said one thing he couldn't stomach and made him sick was fat people I was devistated and never went back I felt like that was directed towards me, that was manny manny moons ago, But it effected me all my life. This is something I have just come to realize. When I get to my goal weight I want to be an encouragement to others I feel as though I have alot to offer people but have been held back by my emotions about my looks. My kids use to say mom your not fat your just fluffy. Cute hah! Well thiss fluff is going to do her stuff and movin on to better more fufilled life. And I will give all the praise and honor to Jesus Christ my Lord and Savior!!
