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i JUST RECENTLy HAD My SURGERy dEC.16TH 20O9. i HAVNT BEEN BiG My WHOLE LiFE, BUT iT DEF WASNT SOMETHiNG NEW TO ME. i MiSSED OUT ALOT OF My "GOLDEN yEARS", AKA HiGH SCHo0L FOR BEiNG EiTHER TO SHy OR NOT WANTING TO LooK FOR A DRESS. i DiDNT GO TO PROM.nD I TEND TO PUSH MySELF AWAY WHEN IT COMES TO GETTING CLOSE TO THE OPPiSiTE SEX, JUST FOR THE FACT THAT, WHo WOULD LoVE SOMETHING So BiG. I KNOW I SOUND STUPID FOR EVEN THINKING THAT BUT THA WAS ALWAYS IN THE BACK OF MY MIND. ITS BEEN SOO HARD CAUSE ALL MY FRIENDS ARE SUPER MODEL GORGEOUS AS WELL AS THIN. SO GOING TO PUTTINGS WITH THEM I ALWAYS SAID NO. I WAS NEVER BIG. I HAD SURGERY WHEN I WAS 14, CAUSING ME TO NOT BE ABLE TO TALK FOR ABOUT A YEAR AND I STARTED PACKING ON THE POUNDS. THEN WHEN I COULD WALK I COULDNT PHYSICALLY DO PE AND EVERYTHING I NEEDED TO ND I WOULD CONTINUE TO EAT AND GAIN WEIGHT. I WAS NEVER A BIG SNACKER. I WOULD RARELY EAT BUT SINCE I WASNT GETTING THE PROPER EXCERSIZE I COULDNT LOSE THE WEIGHT THA I CONTINUED TO GAIN. FINALLY I SAID I WAS FED UP AND I WANTED TO LOSE THE WEIGHT, AND KNOWING I COULDNT DO IT MYSELF NO MATTER HOW MUCH I DIETED, WSL WAS MY LAST 0PTION. OF COURSE, THE NEGATIVES CAME TO MIND, ND NOT BEING ABLE TO EAT LIKE I NORMALY DO AND JUST MAKE A LIFE CHANGE, I WAS READY. EVERYONE SAW THIS HAPPY GO LUCKY GIRL, ALWAYS SMILING, FUN, LIFE OF THE PARTY, BUT FOR SOME REASON THA COMES WITH BEING "FAT". THEIRS ALWAYS THA FAT FUNNY ONE, AND I WAS TIRED OF BEING THA ONE. NOONE KNEW MY ACTUAL FEELINGS INSIDE, AND THA WAS THA I WASNT HAPPY. SO I DID SOMETHING ABOUT IT ! I WAS READY FOR THE CHANGE !
