Sherry T.
I have always been overweight....I remember starting first grade and knowing I was different. I can remember going to Weight Watchers in the first grade with my Mom. She didn't need to go but she took me in hopes to find a way to help me. I do realize it was for my own good now but alot of years I never just felt good enough. So through the years, I have tried to diet, tried to like exercise and have been successful only to gain it all back and then some once I went back to my old habits...a little bite here, a dinner out there, no exercise for a week and before I know it....I'm hitting the brick wall. I am an emotional eater and being from the South....we eat for ANY reason. Whether it's stress at work, birthdays, holidays, relationship issues...boom! And ideally for that few moments of relief and yes in my world it does offer relief...I feel better and know that things will be okay. I have got to find a way to channel that enegery or that need to stuff my face when my world is going at 180 mph and I can't seem to find a way to jump off! My first biggest weight loss that I can remember is going into my Senior year of high school...I dieted all summer and lost 30 lbs...I weighed 180...so figure most girls in high school were 100-120 lbs...my twin sister weight probably 110 so even though I had lost some I was still out of porportion to the rest of the world. However, looking back in pictures...in comparison to her...I wasn't HUGE...i was just the chubby one. I was more curvaceous. As a senior though, I did start dating and the first person who asked me to marry him. I did! At 18 years old....My weight was 228 the day I went to be put on birth control pills. The doctor ofcourse gave me the talk about my weight...and from that 11 year relationship I gained 100 pounds. I don't regret the relationship....we grew up together but we grew apart, I wanted different things than he did when he was happy right where he was ofcourse all my unhappiness came after losing 70 pounds and being within 25 pounds of what I was when I married him....there was a big world to see, people to meet, I was being promoted with the Bank I worked for...time to venture out into the "REAL WORLD". Life and weight gain certainly became a battle from then on out....I've never seem to get back to the VFT of 228...I hit a plateau usually about 245-250 and I just can't seem to get there....am I afraid? Is there something I'm holding back on.....I don't know...right now 250 is looking pretty good. That's 150 pounds away.....so you see, I am at 400 pounds....the amount I was the day I gave birth to my beautiful boy almost 9 years ago...who is the light of my life...for him and for my health, I'm taking this journey....I need to be alive for him! To stop making reckless decisions in my life and be truly happy!!!!
