Sherry T.
Just Need to Exhale.....
Aug 08, 2012
I feel like I need to write about life and maybe that will help.....and for one brief moment on the scale this morning I saw 342, now for some folks that could make you gasp but for me, it's the next goal on my journey. You see, I weighed this when I got pregnant with my son 10 years ago. I've only seen that number one other time, well count that two when I was on the way back up and avoiding my scale like the plague. So for me, I'm excited to see that number! On a day when I have an interview that could mean alot to our lives right now or struggling to make ends meet. I'm really stressed out on how I'm going to get bills paid when my unemployment benefits are dried up....who'd ever thought after 16 months of unemployment still no job! Another reason I had this surgery is to find a job. No one wants to hire a walking liability on what looks like the verge of serious health issues.I know God has a plan and I'm waiting on him to help me with it. As my husband says, don't pray for a job, pray for the right job for you. At this point Lord, a job is a job. I wouldn't even worry about it if I didn't have alot of debt from when I was a single mom not receiving child support but now that I am...it helps but it surely doesn't help all that debt I accumulated over the first four years of his life. We were at the doctor's atleast twice a month and being diagnosed with asthma at 5 months old...it was rough. Breathing treatments, antibiotics for ear infections, diapers.....I don't know how teenage mom's handle it...I thought I was ready and I was 35! I love him more than I love life itself and he is worth every penny. Just wishing I could get out of this hole I have dug. I went and saw a credit counselor yesterday and while it will only lower my monthly expenses $100, the great thing is I will have all that debt paid off in 4-5 years. Yes, it's alot!! Or I could sell my car....which would mean no way to get to interviews, dr appts or whatever I'm doing during the day...and trust me I don't go much at all to save gas money. My hubby is against the debt consolidation because while the lady said it doesn't put a negative affect on your credit report....the creditors can report that you are under a debt management plan and that tends to have a negative impact. So, while right now I'm not worried about it.....in the future when I want a newer car or buy a house...how is that going to impact that decision....it's all very explainable and being unemployed certainly covers it. It's hard though, that's one thing I always prided myself on....I always paid my bills and never had to ask my parents for money. But granted now I have this mountain of debt. So, maybe if he calls my creditors he can make headway with them because after two phone calls and no one would lower the interest rate or work with me, I was done....if he doesn't want to do it then I will do it on my own. I just hate to do it being a banker because they will do a background check and bing! that'll get me disqualified in some banks. I feel like atleast I'm making the effort and no one is willing to work with me. The small bills are fine, it's the credit line from a Mega Bank that is what's killing me.....and while I'm the idiot that used it and I owe it (I take full responsibility) who gives a person that kind of credit line on a signature! I'm talking new car figures here! *sigh* then the economy went south and rates went sky high and I was scrambling.
I digress...I could talk about this all day....a decision will have to be made before next month...hubby picked up the first two credit card bills....but the biggest one is due in 9 days....we'll see how he feels about coughing up $300. It's still going to be a chunk of money.
Gotta focus on my interview, get my suit out and study up my resume and the bank....positive thoughts, self confidence and great image!!! I can do this!!!
Lots of love!
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05/22/2012
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Dec 09, 2011
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