Barb H.
post-Christmas
Dec 26, 2011
I made it through. I knew I would this year because I was able to catch some triggers earlier on, I allowed myself to truly enjoy it. I'm really working on making myself slow down when I eat and chew very well waiting between bites before. I've gotten back into my old habit of wofling down my food. It's really interesting to look at my feelings when I eat. I seem to be embarassed or feel self-conscious when I eat, even when we are at home. I think I must disocciate while I eat. Some of this is from my early childhood, I think. My granddaddy used to mock me (all of us, really) when I'd eat by making gross smacking movements with his mouth and smirking afterwards. I suppose he thought it was funny....i just felt humiliated. And my sister used to yell at me all the time about making noise when I ate. She even yelled at me once when I made noise while eating potato chips. I think I remember that one because my mother finally called her off. When I went to my junior high banquet, I remember feeling so sick to my stomach because I was so afraid I would do something wrong or spill something or make too much noise. Hmmmm. It's good to remember these things so I can start to move on.
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Kailua-Kona, HI
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29.9
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Surgery
01/25/2012
Surgery Date
Jan 02, 2009
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