Starting My Journey!

Dec 29, 2016

Here I go. . .My surgery is scheduled January 12, so excited, but also scared.  I have read so many success stories but it’s the other stories that worry me the most.  I have attempted to change my life and lose this excess weight soooo many times and have failed so much that in the last few years I haven’t even tried to do better.  I know I will be great at this in the beginning but will I stay the course? I am a good cook and baker and my friends and family love it when I cook for them and I love it.  I love to dine out too, I watch a lot of cooking shows I have every kitchen gadget known to man but it all needs to change.  I know that in order to make this stick I have to think about myself in a different way.  I have to focus on my health and my sense of well-being and stop making my life so food-centric.  I know a lot of people will say that I can keep my “foodie-ness” just be creative with healthy food but I think re-tooling my body also means I need to re-tool my brain.  Food has to be something that I need not something I want, I have to find a way to turn my attention to other things that bring me pleasure.  Sure I may get to a place where I can get back in the kitchen in a healthier way but for now I think it’s best to hang up my apron.

I am determined to focus on the positive, what life will be like to walk up to a set of stairs and not think “is there an elevator?”.  It will be nice not to worry about fitting into a seat or whether I can spend hours on my feet at the mall with my daughter.  A few weeks ago I went to a football game with my son and after the walk from the car, up the stadium ramps and to our seats I wanted to lay down and take a nap – I know (or I hope) that by next football season I won’t have that problem.  I want to take a dance class, and hike and just plain feel good again! 

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