Shawnlynn

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So i reached and exceeded my half way mark and now i have also reached the goal of going from obese to overweight. I am 1 pound away from 60lbs down and I am feeling amazing. I still can't believe its happening I am really getting healthy!

Well Its been 2 weeks and 3 days since my surgery and I have just gone back to work. I am exhausted but holding up ok. I am down 29lbs since I started the program Oct 1st and 18lbs since coming home from the hospital. There are a few things that are bothersome like I am FREEZING all the time and it hurts to drink anything most of the time, I still have a lot of pain on my left side and I feel very weak but I am loosing and that is the GOAL so as long as that is happening and I am even improving a little tiny bit each day then things are going WELL!

My pre-op is scheduled for 12/8 and then the 10 day count down begins. So excited but nervous :)

December 18th will be my Birthday!!!! 

I just got the first call from Dr. Gens office and Anthem approved my surgery!!!!!!!!! They will probably be calling me by the end of the day with a date!!!!

Finally weighed in with Nancy today and made my pre-surgery weight goal THANK GOD!!!! I didn't think I was ever gonna get that last pound off lol. So now I am going absolutly NUTS waiting for that dam call. I know I will be better once I get the date then at least I can go on with my life and plan things. The waiting is the worse part of the whole thing :( but I have come this far so I know I can do this. Patients is not my strong suit if you haven't guessed yet :)

OK here I am. I have had the first of the two apt with my surgeon (Dr. Gens). Now I must wait to hear from the insurance company. I feel like I am in my ninth month of my first pregnancy...that LONG painful wait when all you want to do is be done with it, you want to be on the other side of the whole process, you cant sleep, its all you think and talk about. (by the way sorry to my friends and family that have to endure that lol) This blog is definetly helping though. All I want to do is connect with someone else who is at the same point as me. I have talked to people on the "other side" and people that have just started the program but its like there is no one else with me. UGH I feel lonely. The only times in my life that I have wanted something this bad in my life were my marriage and my children.

So I made my first appointment with Nancy and I was given the LONG list of "To DO's" I immediatly got to work. My goal was to get everything done and have the surgery on November 20th because that would be perfect for my schedule....URRRRT CRASH BANG SMASH!!!! Nope thats not how it works folks. If you think you are in control of this program you are NOT. Although I was very vigil in getting all my "To Do's" done in the end my surgery will not be on November 20th however it won't be too far from that date so I am lucky. You just have to let the process do what it needs to do. Get your stuff done, make your apts and keep them, learn as much as you can about your procedure and what life will be like after  GET THE WEIGHT OFF and then wait. Be patient and trust your surgeon will have your back.

So October 1st came and my husband Chris and I went to the seminar at the Frank Jones Center. I was excited and nervous to go but once I got there I realized it was just more of an informational thing and then I became anxious because I wanted to sit and talk with the doc :)  I had my application already typed up printed with a copy of my insurnace card there and I turned it in to Gail that night. I know it sounds a little obsessive but I am just a very organized "lets do this" kind of person. I went home that night thinking to myself this is SO what I want. The next day my husband and I talked with my 3 teens and got feed back from them. I tried to answer all their questions and alieviate any of the anxiety they were feeling. I had in my mind that my son (Jake age 18) would be like  "mom what the heck do you need to do that for?" and I thought my oldest daughter (Kristina age 18) would be "well good mom as long as your safe I support you" and I thought I would get from my youngest daughter (Danica age 16) "MOM thats a great idea!"......    after the talk .....from Kristina I got exactly what I thought (I know her sooo well LOL) however from the other two I got the opposite...Jake was like "mom I think thats a good idea and if it is going to keep you healthy and happy I am all for it" from Danica I got "WHY mom its too dangerous you are beautiful just the way you are" I had to take a step back and remember that she was my baby and she was scared at the risks I was taking. So I spent some time educating her and now that it has been a while I think she is more comfortable that she understands the procedure and how badly I want this and I have agreed to let her be my nurse :)

Ok so same ol' story that eveyone has....dieted my whole life up and down up and down blah blah blah. Highest  adult weight 265 lowest 178. Jenny Craig, Nutri/System, Weight Watchers, Atkins, Slim Fast, Behavior Modification w/ meds so on and so on. Got the weight off within a year put it back on. Then a friend of mine (we'll call him "Stan") told me that he had the RNY done and at first I was like wow isn't that a little over the top? then after like 6 months we talked again and I saw the first picture of him and HOLY COW!!! So I warmed up a little towards the idea but still let it pass by my thought process and was just happy for him. Then about 2 months later he sent me another pic and I was just truely amazed. We started talking about the procedure and the process and the fact that my insurance covered it and boom by the end of that day I had made the apt to go to the seminar and I had my application filled out and had already read the whole Portsmouth Regional Bariatric Program site. I was pumped!!!