shellbell83
Seeing a therapist
Jan 28, 2011
Well, I saw my therapist today - been going to one for a while now. Started going three years ago when my best friend committed suicide - somehow that tragic event spun into counseling on how I can make myself a better person. Since starting the process of getting WLS, I have been seeing the good doc about past issues that lead to gaining weight/worries about what life will be like when I lose the weight. I’m so scared about surgery…. On one hand I know it will free my body from all this “weight” but on the other hand my mind needs freeing also. I live in my mind and I can still hear all the “voices” from the past saying how I was never good enough. That is tough – especially when I have taken those voices from the past and played them as a record as I ate and ate and ate myself to this weight. And now I’m going to shed this weight and in the process shed those voices?!?! Those voices held me behind bars of insecurity and fear for so long – how can I live on the “outside” – I can only image this is what a reprieve and release on a life sentence in jail must feel like….
