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Is it just me? I had to hit rock bottom first.

 

sheranfour

VSG on 09/11/2012 with Sivamainthan (Siva) Vithiananthan VSG on 09/11/2012 with Sivamainthan (Siva) Vithiananthan

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on 1/3/13 5:43 pm  

Hey gang!

So...I'm big time into our board...and read and follow everyday...and this is a major part of my WLS success plan.

Sometimes I want to post something...but don't want to ruffle feathers...so I don't.

BUT...I'm posting now...maybe just for my own reminder...but here it goes:

Everyone has different reasons for having WLS I guess...but maybe I'm clueless. It wasn't just a stop at Jenny Craig, or signing up for yet another WW center...or choosing my Nutrisystem menu for the month. This was MAJOR SURGERY!

And I didn't do it to look good for an upcoming wedding, or because I wanted to look good, or because it was the next thing to TRY.

I Flippin' hit rock bottom! Years of dieting and regaining! Not able to get on the floor with my kids, not being able to sit in ANY regular chair!  Breaking a chair once! Not breathing while I sleep! Being out of breath after walking 10 feet! Starting every day with feeling every pound of fat on my body...and dreading having to carry it with me to the bathroom, to the shower, to the car ( where my seatbelt didn't fit) and to work! I prayed every night that GOD would allow me one more day to live and I'd try to take better care of myself...and beating myself up for not. I cried and HATED my life and what NO ONE else but ME did to it!!

For goodness sakes! I am NOT tempted to eat crap!!! It means DEATH to me!! Doesn't it to you???!!!! I'm not talking about vets...I have only respect for those who have walked before me and have succeeded and are still fighting to this day...FIGHTING!!!! Elina, Frisco and Ruggie and If I could list all the countless others who inspire me here I would!!! I have a REAL and I think HEALTHY fear of straying from plan. I know my triggers, and I know my trigger danger foods. I keep those foods OUT of my life...to me they mean death!

Last night Keith posted a you tube site to check out of the man that lost hundreds of pounds, was on the Today show...and became an inspiration to many!! THEN food and feelings snuck up and bit him....now he's gained almost all back! To watch his face now, to hear the heartbreak in his voice! Then I watched all the other stories you tube linked to that one...men, women, adults, teens...bedbound...suffering...it was horrible!! That could be me!!! That could be you!!! Just one darn ring-ding away!!!

I am scared to slip...so scared. And that means that every bite I put in my mouth is planned and scheduled. I want that to be true forever...but I only have control one day at a time...one meal at a time...one choice at a time. I can't afford to lie to myself...not once. I know myself too well...do you know yourself? if not...you really need too...you have a long life to live...and each choice determines the next.

I don't know if this makes any sense to anyone, but it does to me...and I needed to write this for me. If helps you...GREAT! If it doesn't...read another posters post. Find one that speaks to you...and learn what you need to do ...then do it.

(sigh)

Thanks for listening and not rolling your eyes at me

Peace,

~Deb

 

Hello Friends!!

So this is my first time I've ever really had a "blog"...a year of firsts for me I suppose.

First some history of my journey: I'm 45 yrs old and live in New England. Weight has always been an issue and like many here...I've lost serious Lb's many times over. I got so tired, fed up and the "loss/gain game" was getting the better of me. I stopped trying and fell apart. In 2009 I decided to get off my butt and give surgery a real look. I was scared...but opted to go for it...I had no quality of life...even though my life seemed great to others. The fat was in the way, figuratively and literally. I'm a successful nurse with main focus in Hospice and LTC management ( Staff Ed and Infect Control Professionalist).

So back to my WLS journey...2 yrs ago I began prep for RNY...and long and short...I ran into speed bump after speed bump. Changed jobs a few times and had to wait for Insurance to kick in. Then once I settled into my happy career place...I was really ready to go for my WLS. Testing went OK...then my last test revealed a problem that at the last minute prevented an RNY and I was faced with only 2 options= VSG or Band. The Band was NEVER on the table in my mind...so I came here to OH for the first time and panicked. I asked for info and immediately got it. It was the post Elina gave me that replaced my fear with hope.  I knew this was for me...and OH was gonna be a big part!

12 days later...into WLS I go! LOVE LOVE LOVED my Surgeon! Love his strict eating plan and the NUTs that manage it! Lots of support groups and open door policy!! My post-op recovery was super smooth...except for major constipation issues that actually took just under 3 months to finally find what works for me.

My highest weight 1 month before surgery was 323 and I am only 5'1". Yep...BMI 60. Surgery was 9/11/12...and now I am 234..thats 89 lbs down at just under 4 months! My life has changed! Relationships have changed! More importantly , I'VE changed! My outlook, my happiness, my health! I am happy when I wake up! Each day is a challenge but I take it a bite at a time...keep close to my therapist...and examine the issues that got me to 323.

I don't have even HALF the answers to success for you... but for me, I use my tools: VSG,GOD,my Doc and Nut, Fear, my scale and measuring spoons, and of course OH!!!

I'll be posting as I go...as it was recommended to me to do so. I was educated that the further I get away from my WLS date...I'll forget the urgency and intensity that drives me now. There is no second chances here for me. This is it...and I'm gonna get there...AND I'M GONNA STAY THERE!

We can all do this...but I believe we'll need each other to do it! So grab your laptop or smart phone...and stay for a while! The water is fine! And if there's a ripple in the water once in a while...it's usually signifies a  lesson that must be learned! Either that or someone farted...ther's a lot of gas issues after VSG...I'm just sayin...

Lets do this together!!

~Deb