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It has been a while since I have been on. I really have not been adjusting as well as I thought I would be. Not loving life as of right now. If I have to drink another protein shake I think I will scream!!! I have lost 34 lb and for some reason that does not make me as happy as I thought it would. I just want to feel normal!! I did this surgery to be with my kids and to be healthy, I don't feel healthy and right now someone else has to take care of my little ones! Hopefully this will be over and I will feel like a person again!!

OK I officially have a surgery time! I arrive at the hospital on Monday at 5:30 a.m. surgery at 7:30. I can't even tell you how excited I am. I feel like a little kid. At the beginning of the week I was soooooo emotional I cried all the time. Now I am ready to conquer the world I hope I keep this feeling until surgery!  Well I will talk to you guys on when I become a loser!!!!!!

 Well I am almost done with my first week.......I actually am having a hard time getting all my calories in. I forget my last shake consisting of 200 cals and one day I forgot two. I am having trouble getting all my water in too. It  am getting worried that since food is a very small part of my life now that I won't be able to get all my water in and all my protein in after the surgery! I started making a log for both to make sure I don't get to busy to remember to do both. I however have not exercised this week!. I probably will have to start a log for that too!

Well I passed all my Pre-op tests and I am cleared to go. I hope these two weeks fly by. Today I seem to be doing OK with the liquid diet. It is so hard to cook for my family and not put something in my mouth! I just have keep my I on the prize!

Well here I go.......I start my liquid diet tomorrow. 800 calorie liquid diet for two weeks I know I can do the one week standing on my head, I am just worried about the second week. I am just going to take one day at a time and just focus on getting through that. Send good thoughts my Way!!:)

I finally have my surgery date March 29th. whoo hoo I am so pumped I can barely wait!! Tonight I have my sleep study and I think I might be getting sick which means I might have to re schedule. Please don't let me get sick.

I just want everything to run smoothly.

Well tom morrow I go in for all my test except the sleep study test. I still have done well with no pop and no caffeine. I also have been keeping track of all my water intake. I am becoming very impatient. The surgery can not been done quick enough partly because I don't have to worry myself to death about all the complications. Not to mention getting thinner!!!! Well wish me luck!!!

Well as I go along I have decided to give up coffee too. This is my first day and I do feel a little dizzy. I thought I would start excluding these items before surgery.Drinking 64oz of water has been easy at least so far. I am also trying out not drinking an hour before or after eating,this is proving more difficult than I would have imagined. I also just joined lifetime fitness this week. I am  really excited about that. My inpatients has lessened, but I still am very excited not so much nervous anymore?Feb. 17 let's go already!!!!

Today I am giving soda up cold turkey, so far so good. I am trying to get more water in I haven't started measuring how much, just actually drinking it. I still am impatient about my appointment with my Surgeon. I however have goals I have to meet before I get there (FEB 17). No soda, drinking 64oz of water, not drinking with meals and drum roll please NO COFFEE! I also want to start working out so I can be in the best health I can be in before I go under the knife. I am feeling quite a bit better emotionally I had a really rough week last week. I just am going to focus on the positives!!!!!

I just talked to my four year old's teacher at school. She said that she seems to just want to be by herself lately and just sits on their little couch and doesn't not interact alot with the other kids. I just couldn't run out of the building fast enough. I just starting crying .... still crying. I know she is starting to learn from me!!! I am always tired and I just put her in front of the TV as of late. What am doing!!!! I can't wait until this surgery to make my life better. I have to take action now! No matter how tierd I am or how much I hurt, my kids are not going to suffer!!!! When I do get my surgery it will make it easier on me. Hopefully I do have more energy. I just pray my life will be different I can't stand being tired all the time!