stephanie2011
Here's my story. I am 38 years old and have a great life in many ways - I have a wonderful husband and partner in life, we have 2 boys ages 4 and 7 and I work full time in a job that I enjoy on most days :) I also have a great extended family and circle of friends - both old and new. So, whats the matter? why am I not happy? I feel like an old lady. Everything aches and twinges and downright hurts a lot of the time. I used to be 'smiley' and now I feel like all I do is complain about my aches and pains. Honestly, this is not how I envisioned spending my life. You know that claritin commercial where they peel the film away and you go to claritin clear? I feel like that is my life - it is good but not vibrant!! I want to peel away the dull film and expose the vibrant person that I know is in there.
A bit of history - I have always been a bit heavier than my friends as a kid and weighed 225 lbs by the end of high school but I was always pretty active. I wasn't really a yo yo dieter but I did join a gym with my significant other when we were around 26 years old and we both lost a lot of weight each. I lost almost 50lbs and was down to my lowest weight ever 179lbs!! woo hoo!! Then slowly the weight came back but I maintained at around 200 until I got pregnant with my first son. I did really well and didn't gain too much and lost it all afterwards but then I gained again - 20lbs in one summer!! just like that. then I had my second son and have really struggled with my weight since then. Now, l still felt pretty good physically until my second pregnancy and then basically couldn't walk during the pregnancy due to some issues with my pubic bone. After that, it has just been a downward spiral physically.
I am tired of being tired, I am tired of being in pain and I want to start living again. My mom had this surgery done in 2009 and she feels great, she looks great and she is doing many more things than she could before. I don't want to wait until I am 50 before I do this. I want to live now!! So, here I go......
thanks for reading this. I am learning so much from this site and welcome any friend requests.
