Ready, set, GO

Mar 26, 2009

Well, we are getting closer to lift off.  This will be my last weekend of bliss before things start descending into wt loss surgery chaos. I have a feeling it's going to go really fast at times and really slow at times.  Work will keep me busy during those first two weeks so that is good! 

I'm looking forward to the liquid diet and honestly, I'm looking forward to the surgery as well.  Since starting this journey, I've had some epiphanies.  The biggest was discovering that food no longer holds a power over me.  I no longer get excited about what I'm going to eat or spend all day thinking about it.  I no longer plan my day around my next meal or think about what I can have for dinner at 8 am.  When I think about what I should eat for a particular meal, nothing gets me going like it used to.  It's just ho-hum now.  I think that's the way skinny people react to food.

Another was hiring a personal trainer.  THAT got me excited.  Underneath this veil of fat, lies a person who really does enjoy working out.  It doesn't cater to my immediate results ideal, but it does produce results that you can see over time and I really dig that!  Plus, it feels good.  I've done it before.  And now I'll have an MP3 player that I can use.  I'll have to turn Purple Rain on though...it gets my blood pumping!  That and the 52's!  Anyway, I digress...

I still wonder if I can do it on my own, but I expect that thought is just my mind working through the process.  It's getting close to the point of no return.  If I think I can do it on my own, I'm either fooling myself or I better get busy!  Since I haven't gotten busy, I'm sure I'm fooling myself.  It's my MO to not move off course at this late in the game.  So surgery it is!

Have a lovely day!

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