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Well so much has happened in the last couple of days. Going back to work was very hard.  I miss my son, Levi, so bad. I think we are both adjusting to the change.

Been back at work and really sticking to plan. Work is great for keeping me busy during that day and keeping me from snacking. Work has been providing the structure I needed. Staying at home, the kitchen was always just too close. And even though I made healthy choices, it turns out I can actually survive on much less food.

Since going back to work I have lost a whopping 8 lbs in 4 days. I started back on 1-22-13.I am doing IT Systems Administration for a small call center. And so far I really like it. I am so happy with my decision to get into the IT Field a few years back. It has been paying off so much.   

Not to mention, fixing stuff is SO fun. I have supervised a team of 6 and a team of 27, and I can honestly say I would rather manage systems than people LOL.

So in this craze of weight loss and going back to work I have gotten back into a pair of skinny jeans I have not worn since before I was pregnant. At least 2 years since they fit. I tried them on a month ago and they wouldn't button but today they slid right on and are even a little loose!!!!

Insert Happy Dance

 

Some benefits I have found with working:

Lost 8 lbs in 4 days!

I like my protein drink in the morning for an on the go breakfast!

I have not been tempted by the pizza the company has ordered! Two days last week! Didn't eat any!!!

...Not to mention the cupcakes the breakroom - Not one taste!

I haven't taken the elevator even once!!

I feel energized after work!

 

I do miss my son, but our time together now is so extra special! 

I don't understand why, just because a forum is in text format that people think its OK to say shit they would never, ever, ever say in person.

Anyhow this rude ass comment did make me reevaluate the way I have been spending my days. First thing is I weigh myself, and if I have lost weight I happily run downstairs to log it on MFP.. then I run over to the OH board to look for support and be supportive of others.

Today, while trying to be supportive of another member, I made a comment on her post. Which earned me a reply from another person (not OP) that I was neglecting my son. Wow thats a fucking assumptive statement being that this person doesn't know me in person and has no idea how I spend my days or what my son does through out the day.

I dont see how an innocent comment made on someone elses post, offering genuine advice would earn me an accusation of child neglect... to which I replied. And the asshole who accused me of that didnt even have the common courtesy to look at my fucking reply and apologize. Seriously! Accusing someone of neglecting their child isnt something you do in passing and then not think of it ever again. That is a serious accusation. One that I am deeply offended by. 

 

Anyway, that got me to thinking that maybe I shouldn't try to be so supportive. I want to help with the OP but, when someone who isnt even the OP comes and puts an asshole comment like that, doesn't make me want to participate in the forum anymore. Which sucks because I know it was helping me out, and maybe I was helping some others out too.

I know I am young and havent lived all the challenges that life has to offer. But I am very, very smart. And when I have problems I find a solution. The problem I was having and the OP was having is that we were not feeling connected to our husbands. I stated what I did to feel more connected (started doing something he enjoys which is pc gaming) which has fixed our relationship so much. 

But because I now pc game with my husband, that makes me 'neglectful'

Even though I spend all day with my son and don't start playing until after he goes to bed. I am 'neglectful'

People are rude and need to watch what they say. What is the matter with people?

 

OK OK rant and bitch session over. 

Anyway this post actually started out as something different and evolved into this bitch session.

GOAL UPDATE 2-15-13

 

Below is my original post regarding scale victories... I got to check another one off my list!!! I am now below 265! As of today I am 263.2! This is the lowest weight I have been since I moved to Las Vegas 3 and a half years ago. Feels great!

I also reached my short term goal of more than 40 lbs lost some time ago. I wish I would have remembered to update this post at that time.

I hit another goal of 50 lbs lost just two days ago 

Next goal is to get at 250 (or below even better!) as soon as possible.

And long term to be in a much sexier shape for my vacation to Mexico this May!

 

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I thought I would go over some short term goals that have been running through my head lately. I have already hit some and I want to remember and savor all these little moments in the months to come. 

Short Term Goals

* Lose 40 lbs - I actually thought I would have done that by 2 months. However, I am going to reach this by this Friday, hopefully! (currently 37.8 lbs lost) 

* Weigh below 265 -  This is my most recent lowest historic weight: Feb 2011 right around the time I became pregnant! (Gained up to 337 with pregnancy..) Currently weighing in at 276.6. Obviously I plan on getting much lower than 265!!

I have a mental check list of previous weights I want to beat, and one I already have!. That brings me to my recent accomplishments that I want to recognize and remember. 

Goals Achieved:

1 - NSV ~ fit in my engagement and wedding ring. They are now very loose and once again spin freely :) Waiting til to size it as long as possible :-)

2 - SV ~ Beat lowest historical weight 1: 287! This was the lowest weight I could acheive post pregnancy. This was after months of diet and exercise before a trip to Cancun in May 2012. I beat the Hell out of it! Getting to 285 at 1 month post op (sw: 314) 

 

Long Term Goals:

* Complete all 50 missions on Zombie, Run! Andoid app

* Complete couch to 5k

* Run 5k!!! Run For Your Lives obstacle course and music festival :) San Bernandino CA on September 28th of 2013!

* I plan on running my ass off and surviving all the way to the end!! Oh did I mention, its an obstacle course filled with ZOMBIES!!

 

------Weight Check List------

These are my most recent lowest "historical" weights. Each time I get below one of these weights, it will solidify the fact that I can beat the number on the scale and get to a healthy BMI.

Starting Weight: 314

287 - May 2012 (before Cancun, 1200 calorie diet and exercise) [DONE]

265 - Feb 2011 (After a weight loss contest at work... $50 a pound! Became pregnant at this weight. It is true what they say about being super fertil after losing weight) [DONE] - 2.13.13 264.2

247 - July 2008 (The 'eat once a day' diet along with tons of hours logged at the gym. After a a bad breakup...)

230 - Jan 2003 (This was my one time highest weight! I can't even imagine being that thin... I was able to get down from here... but gained so much back)

200 - Oct 2003 (Down from 230 - Low carb diet, walking 2 hours a day + 45 minutes of elliptical, weight training, and core training,)

185 - Summer, 2000 (Summer before senior year I decided to pretty much stop eating.. I somehow survived on dentine ice and aquafina with the occassional taquito from my favorite mexican restaurant mixed in there... this is the lowest weight I can remember being since 8 years old when I was 80 lbs.)

150 - This is the weight I hope to be someday, This would put me at the high end of healthy BMI for my height.

 

I have a good idea of where I am going, because I know where I have been ;-)