Failing in my dreams, succeeding while awake

Oct 23, 2012

When I woke up this morning, it was from a bad dream.  I dreamed that I messed up on Optifast by unconsciously grabbing an available muffin off a plate and starting to eat the top of it.  And then, after doing that, suddenly remembering that I'm on Optifast and that I'm not supposed to do that, but it was too late to spit it out because I'd already swallowed what I'd eaten.

There were other friends from work around in the dream, and I explained to them that I had just messed up my Optifast, and that I was on auto-pilot when I grabbed the muffin.  I mused about how mindless and automatic it is for me to just grab food and eat it without thinking.

I woke up feeling demoralized, until consciousness set in and I realized - it was just a dream!  I didn't mess up!  I'm doing great! 

Maybe that was my unconscious reaction to completing a whole week on Optifast!  Today is my 8th day.  Now it's pretty routine, and I'm not finding it anywhere near as difficult as I did the first day or two.  I'm not really hungry anymore (what a relief) because I'm being sure to have tea and jello and broth at regular intervals between the shakes.  And I have the shakes at the same time every day.

Today might be a challenge, because the friend I usually have lunch with at work is back from vacation.  I'll just have to tell her that I can't do lunch with her, because even with my optifast shake in hand, it will be unbearable to watch her eating her delicious homemade food.  We'll stick to coffee breaks, which I can handle.

A couple of people at work have told me they can already tell I've lost some weight.  I'm not sure it's that noticeable yet, but they are being supportive and perhaps they're seeing good things because they're expecting to see good things.  The support I've received from friends and family is really great. 

In any case, I can tell I've lost some weight.  I can feel it in my clothes, and I can also see it a bit in the top roll of tummy fat that isn't protruding out quite so far when I sit down!  It's also a lot easier for me to move around, but I credit that to not feeling so bloated from my previous habits of eating until I'm stuffed.

Onto the second week of Optifast!

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