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How did i get here ? I honestly canttell you but i know all my life has been a struggle with my wieght . When i was 9years old my Mom informed me that i was too big so i started a life time of dieting . I can honestly say i have been through them all from the Zone diet to Atkins and every thing else in between . Any one who knows an y thing about this struggle will tell you that at times you get soooooooo desperate you will try everything from fasting to those Fat suits = you know the suit that makes you look like a baked potatoe and feel like a sweaty mess? Or how about the Slim Fast that makes you go to the bathroom like 50 times a day - while your thighs are singing - " If you let me go ill let you pass" all the way to the bathroom . Where you rush to get in a pray that no one sees you or comes behind you because as we all know people seem to believe that fat people sink . Does have to be true but its what is believed . I got to the point where i was trying all kinds of diets , pills and gyms . When your back is hurting and you struggle to work out - there are times when you can be reminded that yes you are fat and yes these lil skinny hieffas will try to make you feel bad about being in pain . Some people and very nice - rather well meaning - from the woman that tells her child its not nice to stare - to the couple who cant stop staring at you in a resturant while you eat . Some will say - you are sooooo pretty if you would just lose wieght ............There is a perception that big people choose to be fat . We choose to be the joke at the comedy club or the joke of the gym . Better yet heck we choose to have back pain that make us stop every few minutes - heck how much fun we have when we get the Sleep Apnea mask ?????? Woooooo hoooo i know i like looking like Darth Vader in drag . So i have decided as much fun as this has been its time to say goodbye `to yesterday . `I have `decided ...............`I`t `is `TIME
Finally after putting off what i knew i had to do i have decided to dig my heels in and do it ! With the back pain , the sleep apnea and risk of other issues i have decided to make this tool work for me . I know its going to be a journey but i am here and ready . Im sure Aetna will be a struggle but they dont know what i carry around with me every day is more of a struggle - so i am ready !
