Heather E.
January 1, 2010
Jan 01, 2010
New year - new me. That's my motto. I think a lot of people I know are not going to like the new me much because it will change the dynamics of our relationship. Oh well, get over it, people! This is not about them, it's about me...I need to change to keep my sanity! I am irritated today because it is my son's birthday, and my parents, my ex's mom, and my sister have all neglected to even *CALL* him to tell him happy birthday. I would like to punch them all in the effing face right now...how rude and unkind!!! Accepting these behaviors is one of the things I plan to change about myself. Giving them all til the end of the day, then if there are still no phone calls, there WILL be some phone calls from me!! I'm not sure if their lack of respect hurts me more than it hurts him [this is probably the case as he has Asperger's Syndrome] but I am done letting that happen. Who needs family if they treat you like shit?!?!?New obsession - reading people's blogs here on their profiles. Not sure why it took me so long to get into them....maybe I am just "slow" and it took me til now to realize they were there? I think part of it is this: I will be honest here - I am slightly obsessed with OH in general, because I am pre-op and sooooo focused on getting my surgery. So I am on here *ALL* the time. Well, there are just some days where the boards I frequent are not that active, or not that interesting. Can't be exciting all the time, even I understand that! But when this happens, I kinda don't know what to do with myself - how do I feed my obsession? That's how I got started on the blogs...feeds my need for reading more about people's personal journies...feeds my need for knowledge...feeds my need for obsessing over WLS. Ick. I think I may becoming a bit of a creeper over WLS. Need to take a step back from this for a moment...LOL. I am hoping that I will ease up a bit once I actually *HAVE* my DS. Then I will probably just be so focused on trying to heal and survive that I won't have time to obsess [I am hoping this is the case!]
I am hoping like hell that the next time I post, I will be reporting that I have received the decision I was looking for from the IMR and that I have a date. Wish me luck!
