Scary that this has happened

Sep 08, 2014

In the last 2 weeks I have fallen off the wagon.  Not way, way off but I have really given myself MUCH too much wiggle room. It all started innocently enough. My tummy is healing nicely, the weight is coming off and I am now starting to experience some cravings. The first one was a pickle. Now that doesn't sound so bad but I am SUPER sensitive to sodium so this was a naughty treat. AND it was an unplanned snack.  This lead to other unplanned snacks all of which were more or less on plan...SF fudge pop, a Yogurt, cheese, a slice of deli meat. But AGAIN... they were unplanned snacks. I was GRAZING.  Omg... at 6 weeks out, how could I be letting this happen already??  My weight loss is slow but fairly steady. I have been learning that my tummy can handle more complex foods again and I LOVE to cok. SO I have been making healthier versions of some of my family favorite recipes and doing a decent job of it. BUT I am now realizing that while I was doing that, the fat, carbs and sodium were creeping up. I use Myfitnesspal and am brutally honest about every bite that goes in my mouth. My calories were staying around 800 so I allowed myself to believe that all was ok as long as the calories were low and the protein was sufficient. Last week I started going to a personal trainer and took up a belly dancing class. That made me feel great!! My energy levels are good, I'm feeling a general sense of well being and...then it happened.  I had a McDonalds Hot fudge sundae last night. 

That was my wake up call. Today I am back on program. I am going to be eating my simple foods again and relying on Eggface to give me ideas when I feel the need to spice things up a bit. I go back to the trainer again today. I am eliminating all beverages other than water because I think they may be a trigger for me.  

I WANT this and I DESERVE this. I am going to put in the work and get my body and my mind healthy.  One step at a time.

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