Waiting Game

Feb 01, 2013

Hey,
Well a lot has happened since what? September? When I started this journey into getting gastric bypass. As the more time goes by the more anxious and nervous I get but most of all I get more tired. It's been a long 5 months of running around, getting paper work done, getting samples in, doctor appointments, so now that it's finally down to the last word I am thoroughly scared. After 5 months of taking our sweet time in getting things done (...I was a smoker so we had to wait that extra 2 months) and it all comes down to that last phone call from my insurance. Whether they approve or deny my surgery. I am so scared. I am a very healthy person outside of my weight. I have no comorbidities and to be honest my BMI is only 42% which I had to gain weight for just to get over that 40% margin. Not that I was far below anyway I originally started in Nov. at 38% for my BMI. Reading about peoples stories & meeting them face to face is quite an experience. To see their humble personalities, their hard work, and most of all their resolve to become a better version of themselves really makes me nervous about myself. Thinking beyond just the surgery I begin to wonder how I will do... Will I go downhill? I don't know. I think right now I am just tired and nervous and pessimistic. I hate waiting but they said it takes 2 weeks for approval and they only sent my claim out around 1/25-1/26.

Until then... Let the good times roll~

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