So many concerns, so little information....

Apr 16, 2011

 Okay, so I did this once today, but it didn't post, so I'll try this again.  I'm having some issues, people!  Besides the whole "getting to know my pouch" issue that I mentioned last week, I'm freaking out on several levels.  Let me preface this by saying that I have called and asked my surgeon all of these questions, to the point of aggravation, I fear!  Where to start....okay, so the burning sensation in my stomach is the first thing, which subsides once I eat, but still, it throws me for a loop every time.  Then there's the matter of of eating slowly enough, good googely moogley that's harder than I thought!  I've resorted to timing myself like a competitive eater of sorts, but it's coming along.  Protein confuses me, only because I'm craving it like mad, but my surgeon's diet that I'm following only has eggs and beans as the sole source of protein.  They said that they'd prefer me to not have protein shakes at this point, which is fine with me because I was beginning to find them quite disgusting, but eggs and beans are getting old.  I keep trying to remind myself that this is just for awhile, and that I can get through this, but I feel like I'm running on steam....which leads me to my NEXT whine....why in the blue monkey nuts am I sleeping so much on the weekends?!  I don't find myself that tired throughout the week, but the past 2 weekends I've slept until after 11, which is about 4 hours later than usual.  Bottom line to all of this is that I'm not cheating, I'm walking 2 miles at least 4 times a week, I'm taking my vitamins and supplements, and I feel like after 6 weeks' time that I should be further along on the weight loss part of things.  While I'm not complaining about losing this amount of weight in 6 weeks time, I really thought that i would be down further than this.  I used to think that WLS was taking the easy way out, I have now added crow to my list of acceptable sources of protein!  This is, by far, the most intense thing that I've ever experienced as it pertains to modifying ones self...lol.  I have said it in the past, and will say it again...this website has been and is a Godsend for me, so I'm counting on some sage advice from you awesome trailblazers!  I have a feeling that one of those things is going to be something about patience, but I can take it...lmao.  Lastly, just let me say that I know that the last thing to transform throughout this process will be my mind.  Having said that, it's very difficult for me to fathom that this will, indeed, work for me, even though statistically I know that's not the case.  Because all I've ever know is failure when it comes to this, I think I'm fully expecting the weight loss to cease, which is why I think I've become so ridiculously wacked out about all of this.  Someone please tell me I'm not alone in being the only one to ever think such thoughts.  Again, thanks for reading my neurotic thoughts, and , don't worry...I'm on Grade A meds.  Later, lovelies!

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