20 weeks

May 20, 2012

 im so frusterated. i feel like a cow. i feel like im gaining. ive been eating everything in sight. i wish i could go see a therapist becuase its all in my head im not actually hungry but im bored and or stressed and i eat and eat and eat and eat its what a freaking did before and im doing it again. i ate like 1300 calories today... im not even 5 months out yet i shouldnt be eating more than 800 >< wtf is wrong with me. ive fallen out of habit of goig to the gym. at this point i havent been there in over a week im depressed my body image is screwed up ugh im SO tired and ive been in a lot of pain in my stomach lately and ive been getting dizzy a lot lately as well. im not sure whats going on but something needs to change asap!
i need a total reset. i need to go to the gym tomorrow and then go at least every other day and my food. i need to fix that,. stop snacking make 3 meal times and plan them out so im not just picking. i need to go back to the basics. just wish i could fn see a therapist.

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