Finally, A Date!

Jan 14, 2009

I have waited so so so long!  I'm sure others have waited longer but its been almost a year for me and I am so thankful it is finally almost over!  My surgery date is Tuesday February 3rd.  That is only like 20 days away!!!  Now I am in the quandry of, do I eat what I want while I still can or do I start watching what I'm eating now and get a jumpstart?  I know what the answer should be but I don't know if I have the control to do that or not.  I guess I wouldn't be having surgery if I had control of all that huh!  I have been going through a list of things in my head that I am REALLY looking forward to about this surgery and one of my biggest ones is knowing that my husband will be proud to show me off in front of his friends.  I know that probably sounds silly because he is not embarassed of me now as I am but I can't help but feel that way.  I am just really looking forward to being his arm candy :o)  I have never felt worthy of him in all the 10 years that we've been together and I want to finally feel like I am worthy of him.  I want to feel good about myself.  I have the greatest husband in the world because he has always loved me no matter what and I have gained about 185 pounds in the 10 years we have been together.  He still tells me I'm beautiful and nothing has changed in any area to make me think any different if you know what I mean.  I'm just glad he doesn't feel the same way about me as I do!!

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