Just an update.....

Apr 04, 2009

I guess its way past time that I post an update.  I am one day past my 2 month surgiversary.  I posted yesterday on the ups and downs that I have experienced with WLS.  My biggest up is the major weight I've lost that I would never have been able to lose without surgery and my major down is the nausea that JUST WON"T QUIT!!!  I can't get in my vitamins or my protein because everything just about makes me vomit.  I can't cook (poor husband and daughter) and I can hardly eat then when something does finally sound halfway good I can only eat about 2 or 3 baby sized bites.  REALLY frustrating and I have no clue how I'm supposed to get in enough protein this way seeing as how all the shakes I've tried so far litterally gag me.  I am totally at a loss and I am really upset about it but I don't dare post this honestly on the main VSG board because I would get advice like - you just have to make yourself drink the shakes - or - you just have to make yourself take the vitamins - to which I would want to reply - gee I wish I'd thought of that!  Its just not that simple.  #1 I have a MAJOR fear of puking.  I know I'm not going to die if I puke but it still completely freaks me out!  I think it has to do with childhood trauma of being forced to ride in the back seat with a brother who got car sick and vomited VERY frequently.  He was one of those vomiters that could be heard five counties away too.  So at any rate theres the first problem and the second problem is - what good is it going to do me to force myself to eat or drink something that is already making me gag and which I KNOW is going to make me vomit and lose the nutrition of that AND whatever fluid I have managed to get down.  I would think that this would just contribute to dehydration.  I don't know the answer but I am just praying that it goes away soon and I can return to a VSG normal routine.  That would be a dream come true!  I know my weight loss has slowed due to my lack of ability to get down my water and my protein and I am scared to death of getting kidney stones.  I eat ice all day long to try and up my fluid intake some but I know the more water the better.  If anyone is even bothering to read this please know that I am trying my absolute hardest.  If you have suggestions you are welcome to PM me.  I will take any suggestion seriously that doesn't involve - you are just going to have to make yourself. 

I can't say all this negative stuff though without saying that I would do it over again because of the tremendous weight loss I've experienced.  I have lost 58 pounds as of today since my surgery day (2/3/09) and 70 pounds overall since last summer.  I am thrilled.  People are finally starting to notice my losses.  Up until about 5 pounds ago no one was noticing except for people who already knew about the surgery.  That was a little disheartening but I think in reality people were noticing and just didn't know what to say or what I was comfortable with.  I have a long way to go to get to goal but I know that with the Lord's help I can get there.  /thanks for reading if you have and if you know the Lord your prayers for this nausea to go away would be greatly appreciated.

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