I love my RNY//ranting about people

Dec 12, 2010

Boy do I LOVE MY RNY!!!!

In a little under 4 months I have lost 81 lbs! I'm about a size 18 on bottom now and who knows on top because I just seem to wear it if I think it's cute. I'm about an xl if its fitted and a 2x if I want baggy/comfy.  Before surgery I was a 26/28 fitted and *ugh* baggy. 

I have gotten some criticism and most of all jealousy.  I expected the criticism but not the jealousy, not from the person I get it from.  My sister, she's not really my sister but a best friend since we were about 10 years old.  At one point she had gotten down to a size 8/10 when I was still close to 400 lbs.  I always supported her regardless and she assured me she would be there for me throughout my journey.  Well she's back up to 250 lbs and is only 5'2.  We were all good until I ended up getting REALLY close to under-weighing her.  She told me she had some pants for me that might be a bit tight but I could have them for when I end up that small.  They were a size 28 and one a 24.  Okay, I go shopping with this girl ALL THE TIME. She was my only shopping buddy. She knows that I havent been that big for 2 months now and I'm between an 18 and 16 now.  Why would she grin and tell me a 28 would be too tight? My fiance said you can just glance at the two of us and no question that I'm smaller by far so I asked him why she would do that.  He simply said "she's jealous".  I was also called a "B" by her because I have a busy life.  I have online courses I'm trying to finish up for my associate of science degree, it's Christmas time which means FAMILY time and I have two families now that I'm engaged. It's a bit hectic to be honest. Well apparently because I missed about 3 phone calls and 2 text messages then misplaced my phone, that makes me a major "b". 

I really am glad she has started acting this way because it has shown me once again who she really is.  I hate to not be around her and to not talk to her (we're not speaking as of now) but without going into detail and airing out the family laundry..uhm...she has done this before with the jealous attitude and was kicked out of the house by my mom for it. It was that bad.  SO ...no more.  I wish she could just be happy for me as I am for her and her new life but if we have to compare who has it "better off" then forget it. 

I know this is more of a facebook blog/complaint but I had to get this out and I don't want to hurt her by her being able to see everything I have written. We're already on bad terms and I'd like it to not totally blow up - she needs to be happy as well.

ANYWAYS so yeah...I love my RNY xD

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