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oh my goodness... just for giggles I tried on a dress that I wore when I was 10 or 11 years old for my big brothers wedding ...for the wedding it was tight, couldnt breathe much nor sit down..I was bulging out everywhere...

I put it on today...pulled it up..ZIPPED IT UP and let out a shriek! I could breathe..move...zip it without laying down and all with NO SHAPEWEAR!!! Pardon my language but HOLY FREAKIN CRAP! I'm smaller than I was at 10 years old!

Well, I had my appointment yesterday. Primary isn't happy with lack of lab test from my surgeons office. My iron, saturation % and ferratin levels arent even NEAR being in range but not low enough for infusions.  They've NEVER tested my calcium..b12 etc. I was SO angry to find this out, luckily though my primary care was even angrier. He asked me to sit tight for a sec, I heard him ask his nurse to get my surgeons office on the phone and then heard him lose his temper. ^_^ I LOVE my primary for that!!  

Anywhoo, he asked me about my blood pressure dropping and he concluded that the length of time it takes me to recover from the orthostatic hypotension episodes along with the SUPER high pulse (anywhere from 150 to 200 at times ) then dropping back down in the 60's ...I get to wear a halter monitor for a few days as soon as they get the pre auth. from insurance.  He strongly suspects arryhthmia and doesn't want to take any chances considering my dad's history with heart problems. *Dad's heart wasn't tested until 8 years ago in his 50's and he ended up with emergency  triple bypass* ...so he's not messing around here.  He's also asked me to try taking my iron on an empty pouch for about a week..maybe some hot tea to coat but thats it.  He's doing some research and about 8 different blood panels to see what we need to do with prescriptions.  I'm VERY thankful for a primary doc that cares and doesn't see me as just another bill he sends out!

Christmas 2005 - I was 435+ lbs...
Middle photo - I DROWN in the sweater that was too tight...
Last Photo..My Daddy and I tonight - I wanted a comparison photo =)
- - 250 lbs lost via RNY Gastric bypass ..I'd do it all over again! - -

Things are just getting more and more confusing for me.

My fiance and I are living with my parents to help them out and in tern, it's helping us out as well.  My daddy was diagnosed with a buttload of cancer in his kidneys - we WERE gonna postpone our wedding until after my plastics just to be sure about insurance. I'm worried to death that something will happen to my dad before the wedding and I just CANT walk down the aisle without my daddy on my arm.  He may not live to see any grandchildren, I want him to at least give me away at my wedding.  Children: thats another thing.  I want a baby SO bad...and so does my man.  We're not in any financial position though - we'd be raising a baby on welfare.  Sure, it can be done but we'd rather not unless it's by accidental losing of a job AFTER we have a child.  I'm also supposed to return to my externship for medical assisting by December.  

I'm thinking more of a casual 'get together' for the wedding just to get the legalities out of the way...still going for my plastics approval and darnt it if I have to be on desk duty for my extern due to my plastics then so be it! 

The children issue...guess it will just have to wait till I finish my externship at least...then I can get a job....and let my plastics heal.  I have to do plastics first, my back cannot handle this extra weight while doing an externship.

Size 10 now. Just sayin ^_^

1--Why does everyone ASSUME that we can NEVER EVER have a single sweet thing or carb filled thing again after RNY?!  (I know that saying 'everyone' is a little much but you get the point)  

2--I'm sick and tired of people nagging me because ...OMG! I eat hawiian sweet rolls! WHAT-A-CRIME! Holy crap ppl..I ate ONE...Yes, it was good and I had protein with it. Sue me.  

3--People who stare at me while I eat. Wtf..seriously?!  I went to hometown buffet the other day, I had a piece of fish on my plate, 2 strawberries on top of 2 tablespoons of cottage cheese as well as a few lettuce leafs with some salad stuffs on em and a tablespoon of dressin on the side of my plate...whats so odd about that? Yeah, my plate has less on it than your mountain of taters n gravy...I prefer it that way..no carbs till I get the nutrition in...lemme slap that stare outta your head! I seriously wanted to mash my plate into ppl's faces -_-

4--Jealousy.. WOW. I had never seen Jealousy rear its head as bad and as obvious as 2 days ago.  A person who I have seen as a mother figure for YEARS, totally chewed me out.  I'm on state insurance because I was considered disabled when I was 22 years old.  I made the comment that I think my pouch is stuck in a permanent state of the "terrible two's" up on my facebook page and got chewed the hell out!  Woman told me to quit b**chin' about what I got for free - and yes I've lost a ton of weight but I don't tell people that 'welfare' paid for it....wait a sec....I'm on on f'n welfare lady...D I S A B I L I T Y!!! It's different.  Look up "snotty" while youre at it too -_- ... I was also called a free-loader...okay ya sure if you call paying mine AND my parents bills for 10+ years now free-loading. Every time I would post something about my surgery, pain from it..illnesses from it or by all means show in picture form what I got at goodwill and the awesome size difference from before... I would get a public nasty remark towards my undeserved success.. She's also one of those that tells me , 'ya you lost the weight but you cheated'  --

5-- people assume that because I'm not 'fat' anymore that I'm in perfect condition to do all the housework, grocery shopping, errand running and still be able to do my own crap too. NO -_-.

6-- My fiance's biological mother - not the woman he calls mom and I call nana(because of her grandkids I have dubbed her nana, easier and more comfy than her first name or mom) ..it's complicated so we call her "T-REX" ... lol.. anyways..she is driving me bonkers..to the point that I wanna change my phone number and not give it to her!!  She calls me at all hours of the night to "chat" or to ask me to come the following day to fix her computer. Yes, I'm a nerd...I can fix computers..I can upgrade them ...and build them...I'm not a magician though, I can't make your dinosaur with 256mb of RAM run windows 7 and a million things...Heck...you're lucky it will allow you to plug in a dang mouse! Stop callin me!


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Now then =D sorry bout all that but I had to get it out and if I'd have said it out loud I'd have punched something LOL.  I've gotta talk to my doc about all the stress goin on and see if there's somethin that can be done... its a little much for me to be honest.  I usually just shrug it off but it's gettin worse..ma just had her back surgery...dad has a tumor in his right kidney thats bigger than the kidney..his left one is ridden with tumors..non cancerous but still.. my fiance is misirable at his job and I feel like b**ch of the century for asking him to stick with it because we need the money.  He doesnt want me to work right now because I need this extra skin off so that my back will handle the field I'm going in to..Medical Assisting then on to RN and maybe Clinical Lab Science. Even Clinical Lab Assistant would be awesome.  Anywhoo...I'm going to bed ...even if nobody reads this I feel like I've spilled my guts to someone...someone other than my surgoens wallet LOL

This was SUCH a wonderful day.  My fiance gave me money to go shopping - I was told to go to the mall and bypass Wally mart and thrift stores all together!  I came home with an awesome outfit: white and grey striped sweater(M), belted denim mini-skirt(12), Leggings(M from wet seal!) and 3 1/2 inch wedge boots in a dark grey suede from wet seal as well.  Hair bows @ Torrid as well as earrings and not one but TWO corsets! I had to get the smallest size they had which was a zero (equal to a 10-12)  and my man LOVES them.  

We went out tonight, me wearing my outfit and rockin the boots. I was totally shocked when guys would turn their head..even holding a little skinny mini they would still look!!  My man just smiled and put his arm around my waist..I swear if his chest puffed out any further we would not have fit through the door HAHA!!  

He took me to a place called SKEWERS, very pricey but worth it for a serloin kabob..OH MY talk about wonderfully tender protein!!  Then we went to the movies..It's a nice feeling to have guys look and stare because you look hot instead of whispering negativity into their friends ears! Just topped it off and made me feel like a princess to have my guy be so proud!

I am ONE YEAR POST OP!!!!

One year ago today, my life changed FOREVER and for the better! 253 lbs gone - I'm in a size medium/small top and medium large bottom(extra skin) .  What am I doing to celebrate? I'm living life - stressing about things that have nothing to do with food and nothing to do with being fat.  I went to goodwill and bought 2 very nice leather coats one is a large one is a medium and they both fit!! 

Had my 1 year post op appt with ny surgeon and he wants me to speak at his seminars..he told me I was the posterchild for RNY success - how about that for a 1 year present!!!?! ^_^

In four days I will be one year out from my RNY Gastric bypass. It's been one bumpy road but I've had it easier than most with only a few minor complications.  One year ago, I couldn't fall asleep because I was dreaming of being smaller and my journey to get there.  Now I find myself unable to sleep because I am overjoyed with the 250 lbs I have lost and the fact that I get to have my extra skin removed as my surgiversary present to myself.  

I started out a few years ago weighing 435 llbs. I lost 125 on my own. My fiance had proposed to me before I even lost any  of that  and he has stuck by my side the entire time - my own personal cheerleader.  On August 13th 2010 I had my RNY surgery, changing my life forever. 

I now weigh 185 lbs. My BMI was 62.4 at its highest and now I'm at 26.5.
I went from a size 5X to a Medium - 10/12 
In a few weeks I will be having about 20-30lbs of skin removed (estimated by my plastic surgeon)

God  has been so wonderful to me - I have been given yet another chance at life and darnit, I get to live it this time.  I have a new thin, healthy body - a quality education that has allowed me to earn my associate of science degree, wonderful family and friends - we're moving into our own apartment soon - and the man I have standing by my side through all of this is so wonderful to me...there's nothing I would change about him.. except the fact that I want his last name and I want it now =)

Everyone worries about extra skin post RNY, so I thought I'd give a little show and tell (plus these are my pre-op for pastics for my personal records.

First off, I was 435 lbs before I thought about RNY, lost 110 on my own so I was 325 at surgery, not I"m 188 so all together I've lost 247 lbs.

Here is what 247 lbs gone does to your tummy skin. If you are curious and want to know, I CAN put up pictures of the panus as well but I have to have my fiance sort of "okay" that first..being as how much will have to show and be blurred out etc.







































I just had gallbladder surgery, that's what the bandaids are from.