Life is happening and I don't like it.

Sep 12, 2011

Things are just getting more and more confusing for me.

My fiance and I are living with my parents to help them out and in tern, it's helping us out as well.  My daddy was diagnosed with a buttload of cancer in his kidneys - we WERE gonna postpone our wedding until after my plastics just to be sure about insurance. I'm worried to death that something will happen to my dad before the wedding and I just CANT walk down the aisle without my daddy on my arm.  He may not live to see any grandchildren, I want him to at least give me away at my wedding.  Children: thats another thing.  I want a baby SO bad...and so does my man.  We're not in any financial position though - we'd be raising a baby on welfare.  Sure, it can be done but we'd rather not unless it's by accidental losing of a job AFTER we have a child.  I'm also supposed to return to my externship for medical assisting by December.  

I'm thinking more of a casual 'get together' for the wedding just to get the legalities out of the way...still going for my plastics approval and darnt it if I have to be on desk duty for my extern due to my plastics then so be it! 

The children issue...guess it will just have to wait till I finish my externship at least...then I can get a job....and let my plastics heal.  I have to do plastics first, my back cannot handle this extra weight while doing an externship.

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