November 5, 2014

Nov 05, 2014

I really like my surgeon.  He was very personable and real.  One thing I didn't ask him and would like to="Why did you choose this speciality?" Insurance is all set which surprised me because I have no comorbidies and fall below the BMI level normally excepted.  Surgery is scheduled for November 18.  Yes, I'm excited but it just doesn't seem real.  I already eat high protein and real food.  After all I have learned it makes me sick that American companies are profiting big time from fooling, and tricking people to buy their crap.  On top of that, all the profiting from false weight loss products.  We want so much to believe that with all the science and knowledge out there-someone has invented a magic cure!  Wrong!  It's all work and we have been lied to.

Because of so many years of trying it all, it's hard to wrap my head around this surgery, but truly I am desparate and feeling hopeless.  People tell me that after it's over, I'll realize that it can be true for me and I'll start feeling more confident.  I pray that's true.  I want to put my bathing suit on again, walk a long ways without feeling like I'm dying and sweating like a pig, feel energetic, feel strong. I want to shop for pretty clothes and feel normal.  Next week I have a half day appointment to go over the food plan for after surgery and to start my low calorie diet prior.

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