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Today I'm exactly 2 weeks post-op and I'm heading in to work this morning. I'm going to do a week of half days. I'm lucky enough to have a lot of vacation time available and I get tired so quickly that it seemed like a good idea to do half days for maybe another week. 

A few of my colleagues know about my surgery, but most do now and I'm nervous about questions. My work environment tends to be on the super gossip-y side so I know there has been and will be talk. In addition to my RNY I also had a small hernia repaired, so I think I'm just going to go with that as "my story" for now. I'm pretty sure at some point I'll feel more comfortable about it, but for now - not so much.

I'm going to say it - I basically HATE every protein shake I've tried post surgery. I can get down the Nectar Lemon Tea, but everything else made me want to gag - until yesterday when I tried one of the protein shake recipes I've been seeing all over Pinterest. A scoop of Nectar Cappuccino, a T of SF chocolate pudding, and 2T of SF hazelnut syrup (though I wish I had only use 1T). No gross protein powder smell. No weird after taste. It felt a little like heaven! 

I've had the luxury of my mom being with me since my surgery a week and a half ago. She's retired, doesn't live too far away, and was able to be here for almost 2 full weeks. She helped me keep track of the zillion meds to be taken in specific order, she brought me broth, she picked up my cell phone charger from the floor, and helped me put my pants on those first few days. But most of all she made me feel safe. After my first follow up visit with the surgeon today, all was well, and it was time to put her back on the train. I cried. I might have ugly cried. It isn't that I don't think I can take care of myself, but having her company really kept me feeling positive.

And honestly I feel a little scarred now. Though totally unlikely, what if I passed out? What if I can't get out of the bed tomorrow morning? What if...? What if...?

I'm one-week out and today I get to try "full liquids." I had 1 ounce of a Nectar chocolate truffle protein shake, made with skim milk, about 45 minutes ago and all is well! I'll work on this 8 ounce shake over the next few hours and then I get to try soup. I'm so sick of fruity flavored things, tomato soup sounds soooo good to me right now!

The day is almost here and I'm finally getting nervous...super nervous! I know I've made the right choice so I'm not nervous about life after surgery, I'm now just nervous about the surgery itself. Not the surgeon or facility, but never having had surgery I feel like I have no idea what to expect. Will the operating room be bright? Will they listen to music? Will I be totally naked? Will I wake up from the anesthesia? Who all will be in the OR? Will my parents be freaking out? 

When I got the word on the time, it all really set in and the nerves kicked in big time - too bad I can't take my anxiety meds LOL.

Just had a nice little quarter cup of applesauce that my Mama made for me. It will be the last "regular" thing I have for a few weeks and I'm feeling good. I don't seem to be very nervous at this point - mostly because I know this is the right choice for me, but I'm just ready to get it over with - Tuesday can't come soon enough (or the phone call tomorrow afternoon telling me what time the surgery will actually be!)!

My surgery date is FINALLY official, March 18th...here I come!

While the relief is palpable, now even more anxiousness is setting in. And god do I want some Chinese food! 

My surgery date is still technically "pencilled" in (even though I'm only 1.5 weeks out), until tomorrow that is. Throughout the entire process of preparing for surgery I had been planning to have get a sleeve, but at what was to be my final pre-op appointment at the clinic - signing consent, etc - my surgeon decided we needed to explore possible reflux issues  So off I went to the GI doc and then on to an upper endoscopy.

Tomorrow I'm off to the surgeon to "discuss" the findings of the scope and I'm pretty sure she's going to recommend switching to the RNY, which bums me out a bit. BUT, things should finally be finalized and god will that make me breathe more easily.

I started the liquid diet on Monday and it's been murder this week.