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WOW!! Can this be possible?? 90 lbs down and at my halfway mark today!!!

I started this journey in April with my first seminar. Began My pre-op diet mid May, and had my surgery in June. As of today, I have lost 90 total. 30 pre-op and 60 since surgery. I am amazed at the person I am becoming. I do not want to sit complacent and let life happen to me, I want to go out and live it!! Now, if I could just get rid of that little part time job so I can go live life....hmmmm?????

Started this with 180 lbs to lose. Stepped on the scales today, I am only have 99 lbs to go, baby!! Whooooo!!!!

Went shopping this weekend to discover that I have gone from a whopping size 26 to an 18!!! I am ready to leave Lane Bryant in my dust!!

And to top it off, as of today, my BMI calculator no longer says that I am MORBIDLY obese. I am just plain old obese now!!!

Last night, I checked out my first aerobics class in...um...let me see...EVER, and LOVED it!!!

I have been big most of my adult life. I am used to stepping aside to let people pass in the halls. I was the girl looking at my feet when I walk and uncomfortable in a social setting. I was the girl ashamed to step onto a scale at the doctor's office. I have even been know to just tell them my weight and ask if we could skip that part, then LIE about my weight. There is nothing more embarassing than to have to tell them to keep sliding that stupid little marker at the top of the scale. Go on over to the 300 mark, then we'll start from there. Not anymore! I stripped my sweater off and  jumped onto the scale yesterday at my three month appointment. The nurse just stopped everything and said WOW! Look at you!! When I took off my sweater. Really? Me? You are surprised by my changes?? Yes, obviously she was...she kept going on and on about my waistline. Made me feel really good!!

I can't say enough good things about my support group!! They are fantastic. I love them so much. I have grown with each of these girls in the past few months. We have bonded over shared experiences. We are all so excited about our journeys. This is definitely not something that someone who has not had the surgery would ever understand. The excitement of getting up each day. It is like each day is a gift and I am excited to wake up, get up, and get going!! I have a renewed love of life. My group shares this feeling. I enjoy meeting with them twice a month (and sometimes outside of group we gather to hear local musicians play or hit a movie). I look forward to seeing them every two weeks and seeing the changes in their bodies and confidence. Even though I see them bi-monthly, it is like reuniting with long lost family members that you can't wait to see. I can't wait until September 11th!!!

As I was getting into the shower yesterday I dared a glance over my shoulder to the mirror, notice a startling revelation...I am losing my butt!! It is melting off of me! Yay!! I looked through my before pics digging through trying to find a pic of my "before" rear-view, and came up with only a couple side views. I have done a good job cropping my back side out of pics. I posted the ones I could find up on here today. The one with the horse.....WHAT IN THE WORLD... that is a monster tookas!! Then I posted one from this week, just to see the difference. Wow!! I am over the nausea, and this month-long weight loss stall I have been on, and now I am finally beginning to love my sleeve!! Can't wait to see what the future holds!!

Well, I have been at the office for a week. I am still battling with nausea. I come to work and just feel gross all day. It beats how I feel at home though. I have to deal with a whole different set of problems at home. I was crazy to believe I was going to be able to focus on myself. I have to deal with a demanding daughter who does not believe in letting me do things just for me. At work, vacationsand short staffing has us running around like crazy. I am doing everything i can to keep water on my desk and get it in. I eat lots of scrambled eggs and cottage cheese to try to get my protein in since i am having a hard time with the shakes. It is nothing to walk into my office and see eggs or cottage cheese and five cups of water spread across my desk. It usually sits there until I can pay it some attention. I cannot wait until I feel better, and feel like eating. I guess we will see what next week brings. Until then...

Back to the office today. Surgery seems to have gone well if I could get over the nausea. Can't get my proteins. I do go see my doctor tomorrow. Hopefully he will be able to prescribe something other than what I have for nausea. I can't keep it down!

One more week at work. Stress is piling high! Work is piling higher! Spent the last couple of days extremely frustrated at the progress I am making with the mountain of paperwork on my desk.

Not to mention, the NON support I am getting from my family.

I offered to pick something up for my eighteen year old non-employeed daughter to eat last night. She wanted me to take her somewhere to eat. Picking something up was not good enough. When I reminded her that I cannot EAT, and that I am on the liquid diet, she blew up, cussed me out and reminded me that this surgery is all MY idea, not HERS. That I am making everything about ME!!

Okay baby girl, I have made everything about YOU for eighteen years, it IS ALL ABOUT ME NOW!!

I just wish I wouldn't feel so guilty for saying that to her. I would say it if i knew it wouldn't break MY heart!! She could care less about my health or well being. It is always supposed to be about her!

 Went to my support group meeting last night and low and behold I met my first sleever in person! I couldn't be happier.  I have enjoyed this website, but there is nothing like meeting someone face to face who can share your experience with you.

The team at my surgeon's office is fabulous. They are caring and I love them! They have a wealth of products that they sell in their office store. I picked up my liquid protein for week one post-op. A lot of Isopure and some whey protein shots. At our support group they brought a lot of the products for samples. I was not very impressed with the tastes. Week one is going to be a beast to conquer I believe.

I cannot wait for WEEK ONE though. I am supposed to get my date today so I cannot wait to post it here! So excited!

can't wait! so excited! my date should be in the next few weeks. already been on a partial liquid diet for 2 1/2 weeks. i am  bursting at the seams. i decided to keep my list of people who know i am having the surgery very small. i am finding it harder and harder not  to tell people because i am so excited. plus people are noticing the weight i am losing. i just tell them i am on a liquid diet and keep on rolling. some people who are familiar with the process have caught on, but most people just congratulate me on the weight loss. what i can't stand is telling someone my secret only to find out they have told other co-workers. shoulda known better. it's all going to be very obvious in the very near future...even though it seems so very far away!