Paper Work

Aug 30, 2014

I received all my surgery information today. Paperwork, paperwork, and more paperwork. Which was to be expected. I have my pre-op diet information, and tell you what it's a much shorter set of info than you would expect. The realness of this is starting to set in. I have to admit I often shy away from things that are hard. I usually combat hard with preparation. If you're prepared enough then it shouldn't be hard right? Well believe me I don't have any illusions that perpetration is going to make this process not hard. And don't think that that knowledge doesn't frighten me.

To tell the truth I'm in the mental space where I'm less afraid of the surgery and recovery than I am of the pre-op diet. But I know that it's a chance to prepare my body as best I can for the surgery and prove my commitment to both myself, my family, and my medical team. Everything about doing this pre-op and post-op diet has me emotionally frightened. I feel like I'm a bout to rip my blankie out of my child like psyche. Which I why I'm going to start looking for a counselor to help me manage all this emotional upheaval. I know I'm at the beginning of this process but I do recommend to anyone combating eating issues or thinking of a going through a big life change of any kind, a good therapist is with their weight in gold. 

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