Ok so this is what I get for giving people another chance.

Aug 26, 2011

I didn't post anything about this the past few days because wel I have been so very embarrassed. Embarrassed that I left myself get sucked in AGAIN and embarrassed that I lied to myself AGAIN. This is a vicious cycle I am hoping ends. I know the only way it will is for me to end it myself so I am gunna hunker down and end it.

This is how it goes:

August 20th: Two days before my surgery. My oldest sister and her hubby (yes this is the same sister who got gastric and arterial confused. Also the same sister who "refused to talk to me if I went ahead with this surgery, but later relented." were sitting out back of our house on the deck and told me she could not do something so final to herself. I should just pay better attention to what I was doing. Ok I heard you not only the first time you said it but I heard it this time too (the 50th). I gave her the stare and went about my buisness.

August 21st: The sister and her hubby inform me that they will be leaving a few days after my surgery because they are moving to Washington State. Yea right *rolls eyes*. She has been talking to one of my brothers who molested me as a child and she called me a liar when I told her. I confronted her and her hubby seperately and told them I knew they were both lying and that they needed to come clean. Story changed to "Oh we are going to go see him for a few days THEN go to Washington State." Ok no problem, I do not care who you talk to really, just do not lie to me and think ANY type of lying is ok.

August 22nd: DAY OF SURGERY- We are all up at 4AM. They with their coffee and me with my cup of *AIR*- ok back up AIR? yup air. I was walking around with an empty cup goimg through the montions of drinking some coffee. So hubby gets home from work, changes clothes and we are on our way to the hospital. We are all waiting in the waiting room and the sister and her hubby both tell me and my DH that they are gunna go back to the house as soon as they know I am doing well because they want to get some sleep. Ok that is fine, but Joe will be calling you sometime in the afternoon. I get called back and everything goes great until........ BADDA BADDDA BOOM!!!!! I get rolled up to my room where they get me onto my be and hooked up to all my crazy amchine thingies. Joe comes in and hands me my cell phone- YUP I stone dialed people and even stone texted people LMAO. I noticed there was a message. It was from my sister.
this is the exact message," Bonnie, I am sorry but I can not take any of this. We are packing up and leaving as I leave you this message. Hope you do not get too upset and hope you look on your phone sometime tomorrow and not today. Bye"

Ok sorry for what? Can't take any of what exactly? Uh upset ain't the word for it. And sure let us fast forward to tomorrow and hope that you are FUCKING kidding me.
I called her up and after two times of getting her stupid VM she finally calls me back and says the surgery was depressing her and that she had to leave because she could not stand to watch me make the biggest mistake of my life. Uh excuse me- this was MY choice and as for it being my biggest mistake...... hardly. I also was nice enough to point out a few of her very huge mistakes. LOL offended she was, cuz she hung up on me. So far all I have gotten from her was- got any good painkillers and are you still sore.


So yea I had a pretty few stressful days. On the plus side though. I am sleeping over in the bedroom where her and her hubby were. Dh is afraid he is gunna roll over and slam his arm on me or something.

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